Thursday, December 29, 2016

1448 MY ORIGINAL PLAN CHANGED FOR THE BETTER


Post 1448
Have I made you aware of this fact?  Upon deciding to blog, I had
No intention of writing about the role played by personal growth in
Effecting positive changes, which improve my daily life
My original plan had focused solely on penning a memoir of
Success stories, some serious, some funny, all highly personal and
Classically meaningful, concerning our global need to create
Change for the better in home after home ... then as the content of
My posts grew so expansive as to include descriptions of
My day to day existence, my blog evolved as is true of
Many surprising aspects of life, and here's why that
Change proved better than my original plan, which entailed writing
A trilogy of books, each filled with stories aimed at inspiring
Parents to enjoy raising kind-hearted, responsible children:
Whereas authoring an autobiographical series of books offers readers
A chronological beginning, leading toward a finite end
Authoring a blog creates a living entity, and any living thing that's
Fully energized proves to be as unpredictable as is true of life, itself
And as living things (specifically human beings) are not machines
Unlike machines, human beings have hearts in need of
Nurturing, minds in need of guidance and spirits in need of thriving
And having spent time reviewing insights, which re-emerge in
Post after post, I can see why intuitive trains of thought inspired
My conscious mind to pen my personal take on
Faulkner's quote before freeing my thought processor to glide into
A rest station where my Solution Seeker (not to be confused with
My Fixer) plans to relax until my natural sense of readiness spotlights
The first in a series of stories (each of which is sure to showcase
The part played by personal growth when leadership, thinking to
Make good use of creativity, comes up with a plan of action, which
Ensures that change for the better will benefit one and all)—and
BTW, in case you're wondering why I've decided not to jump-start
My story-telling voice before my intuitive sense of readiness feels
Naturally re-energized, I'd reply:  Every seasoned story teller knows
That shaping a story's success depends upon the vitality of
The creative process, and for quite some time, my conscious mind
Has not felt inspired to describe—
Personal growth spurts while in high school ...
Personal growth spurts while in college ...
Personal growth spurts while teaching children ...
Personal growth spurts while transitioning from girlfriend to wife ...
Personal growth spurts while living across the country from family
Personal growth spurts while parenting ... with humor
Personal growth spurts while teaching adults to motivate children ...
Personal growth spurts while speaking at professional conferences ...
Personal growth spurts while authoring articles ...
Personal growth spurts leading toward marital separation ...
Personal growth spurts leading toward mutual reconciliation ...
Personal growth spurts leading toward spiritual existentialism
Personal growth spurts leading toward my acceptance of aging ...
Personal growth spurts leading toward my soulful sense of wholeness ...
And since I have no clue which series of insight-laden stories
Will emerge from within my intuitive well-spring, next, common sense
Tells me to offer my whole mind time to relax and enjoy the rest of
This festive holiday season unencumbered by inner need to tunnel
Toward insights, which, upon intuitive release from subconscious storage
Will, no doubt, act like jumping beans inside my head, and
Hopefully, by adhering to this plan of inaction (which, as you know
Will not be easy for my active mind to pull off) a new day will
Dawn when my intuitive urge to write stories, highlighting
Yesteryear's personal growth spurts, will re-emerge as naturally as
The Phoenix arose anew, and once readiness resurrects my storyteller
Here's what we can expect to change for the better:
We can expect my newfound sense of wholeness, based in a recent
Series of personal growth spurts, to enrich my storyteller's ability to
Relate each story that pops out of my memory bank with a greater
Sense of maturity than would have been possible had each of these
Stories been told before my conscious mind had gained insight into
This fact:  As long as yesteryear's pain had remained buried alive in
Its festering state deep inside my subconscious
My defense system's wall of denial would have blocked
My smarts from identifying how often tunnel vision
Had limited my perspective of choices, which are
Readily available to my expanded sense of sight, today, and
Now that my current stream of consciousness has emerged for
Your consideration, all I feel need to say before pulling
Today's insight-driven train of thought into a rest station for
An undetermined length of time is this:  No matter which
Series of stories emerges first, each will surely focus
Your think tank and mine toward considering insights, concerning
Classic conflicts in need of resolving and universal problems in
Need of solving by making sound use of our noodles' innate
Potential to grow toward creating positively focused plans of
Action, culminating in change for the better, just as
My intuitive smarts inspired my conscious awareness to
Tweak the bleakness out of Faulkner's skeptical point of view:
"The past is never dead. It’s not even past."
And with thoughts of opening our minds to creating change for the better as
We welcome in The New Year, imagine my spirit's smile wishing you and yours
A Very Happy, Merry, Healthy, Rebalanced Perspective Concerning Everything
You Wish To Come True For Your Positively Focused, Existential Self!
As for me, I'm planning to ring in the New Year with Barry's loving family of
Four, who, having celebrated Christmas with Marie's family on the coast, feels
As eager to light the rest of our Chanukah candles with us as we feel eager to
Join hands and dance from room to room, singing holiday songs, followed by
Ladling applesauce on latkes before everyone sits in a circle on the floor in
Readiness to play dreidel with Papa and me! And with that happy plan in mind
Imagine my think tank relaxing while my spirit's sense of joy wishes
A happy, health prosperous New Year to one and all!
PS
This addendum popped out of my mind on New Year's Eve:
Tonight, we'll toast to peace on earth, which each of us can wish for, though
Reality suggests that achieving such a Herculean feat is way beyond
One person's control.  On the other hand, if we each choose to redirect
Our trains of thought toward creating a wholesome sense of inner peace, that
Long range goal, being highly personal in nature, can be accomplished
Little by little, by making such good use of our smarts as to grow ever more
Attentive to tuning into those times when our intuitive powers are guiding
Our intelligence to place our defense systems aside in order to
Switch tracks from negativity toward tunneling ever more deeply
Courageously and constructively through layers of subconscious fears, each
Of which has, in one way or another, limited our mindsets ever since childhood ...
And with thoughts of dismantling defensive walls of denial by way of
Joining hands to create a circle of love, where each of us feels inclined to
Pass the baton of personal growth, back and forth
I feel hopeful that those who seriously adopt my line of reasoning
Will develop into positively focused leaders, who guide other fortunate
Souls to follow their lead by creating an emotional atmosphere
In home after home, where people of all ages, nationalities and religious
Ideologies feel so safe as to embrace a sense of eagerness to congregate
Together, as often as possible, thus inspiring children's minds to absorb
Such a deep sense of personal safety as to encourage each other's
Sense of inner peace to thrive, and as inner peace is based in
Self worth, families who choose to embrace effective and compassionate
Solution-seeking techniques will influence changes for the betterment of
Mankind to advance around the globe, and here's why that's true:
As attitudes of future generations experience sound reason to grow
Ever less defensive, more people will feel inspired to
Work together, wholeheartedly, to achieve common goals, which
With patience, will lead toward the eventual establishment of
World peace—one step (one home, one town, one city, one nation)
At a time, and each of my stories will reflect the ways in which
The establishment of self respect in home after home will serve to
Form the foundation of mutual respect that's necessary if
Children are to grow up to be positively focused, kind hearted
Adults, whose leadership skills have had sound reason to mimic and absorb
Well balanced portions of humility, self respect and mutual respect while
Growing up under the protective wings of loving adults, who—having
Come to understand and absorb the importance of honoring self-control
Self respect and mutual respect—consistently role model all three—most
Especially when conflicts, which are bound to arise, are in need of resolution
And that's where my stories come in, because each will exemplify this fact:
Little monkey faces tend to mimic and take with them into the world whatever
Their adult role models say, do, and feel, and once I came to see how often
Our defense systems fool us into believing that we know ourselves in depth
I decided to tune into my intuitive voice, which is empowered to offer me
Clues as to when my wall of denial is fooling no one as much as I'm fooling myself!
And with hopes of relating stories (describing my conscious adoption of personal
Growth whenever I'm seeking to effect change for the better), some time soon—
That's a wrap for today—except to say that I reeeallly hope readiness ripens
Before too long, because, as you can see from the length of this PS, after
Five years of posting, I'm having a tough time accepting this self imposed
Hiatus from blogging, because mental habits are hard to break, and
My stories will be sure to describe the effects of that deeper truth, too :)

Monday, December 26, 2016

1447 HOW MANY AUTHORS FEEL COMPELLED TO CONVEY THIS CLASSIC MESSAGE?

Today, only one insight comes to mind, and since
This insight-driven thought was not authored by me, hopefully
After quoting William Faulkner, my power of intuition will not
Feel need to say more, freeing my thought processor to
Relax, peacefully, thus playfully, throughout the rest of the day:

"The past is never dead. It’s not even past.”

Oy!  I should have known that the profound nature of
Faulkner's classic insight would strike a match, re-igniting
My thought processor's pilot light ... I mean, seriously, here I am
Hoping to switch tracks from penning a post to
Playing with Ravi, who, along with me, is sure to enjoy
Today's play date with her doting uncle before David flies back to
The coast, tomorrow, where he'll continue to carve out his existential
Path, feeling as deeply enriched by our family's week-long
Love-In as is true of his sweet niece and me.  On the other hand
I understand why Faulkner's dour take on the past would direct
My mental energy to stick with this stream of consciousness until
An insight, sparked by my experiences, emerges from within my
Intuitive depths, inspiring my thought processor to lighten
The dark despair bared in Faulkner's attitude (if you read
THE SOUND AND THE FURY, you know what I mean)—
Holy smokes!  Guess what just happened! The positively focused
Insight that I'd hoped to spark just ignited, so let's turn its spotlight
Toward your mindful consideration, right now:
Thank goodness the past is never dead, because much of
What has passed reminds me of love's eternal capacity to
Rekindle the intimate nature of yesteryear's
Heartwarming glow, suggesting that
Much of what I have experienced proves worthy of
Repeating as often as everyone's busy life permits, and
On that up beat note, imagine my spirit smiling while
My conscious awareness absorbs the soulful nature of today's
Heartwarming train of intuitive thought, which, having partnered with
Creativity, felt need to spin Faulkner's bleak, experiential outlook
On life into an uplifting expression of every person's existential need to
Embrace a positively focused attitude, concerning
The human heart's natural potential to expand upon
Yesteryear's narrow mindsets, which (having been based in
Negatively focused defensiveness buried alive during childhood)
Had limited our agility to offer and receive love until
The hopeful attitude of an optimistic realist (such as I choose to be)
Inspires pessimistic attitudes to change for the better by telling
Stories aimed at guiding the skeptically minded toward absorbing
The infectious nature of my experiential, insight-laden
Line of reasoning, and now that this stream of consciousness
Feels complete, I can feel my playful sense of readiness to
Frolic with David and Ravi guiding my think tank to
Switch tracks, so as to pull the serious nature of today's
Train of thought into the rest station, directly ahead, which has
Patiently awaited my think tank's arrival for quite a while ...

Sunday, December 25, 2016

1446 A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING

Within every life, there's a first time for everything
For example:  I'm experiencing a first, right now, in that
Upon awakening, this morning, my think tank
Experienced an emotionally disconcerting state of
Heightened awareness, concerning this fact;
My power of intuition had not released
So much as a clue directing my conscious mind toward
What to write, today, and you can believe me when
I say that having awakened with no awareness of insights
Lining up, like jumping beans in need of conscious release
Presents this solution seeking, storytelling blogger with
A most unsettling first ... Oh Wait!
Something, very possibly an intuitive insight, after all, just
Whispered this thought into my blogger's ear:
Perhaps, my need to relax the far-reaching arm of
The Fixer requires silencing my insight-driven voice, offering
My intuitive powers time to rest until my whole brain, feeling
Naturally revitalized, senses my storyteller's readiness to
Reawaken, at which time my thought processor, newly
Freed of inner conflict, will switch tracks and acting like
Little Jack Horner, who stuck his thumb in a pie and
Pulled out a plum, I'll pull out a plum of a story to pen!
And having amused myself with insight, highlighting
A sweet morsel of food for thought in need of
Digesting, overnight, I'll end today's post by
Wishing you and yours A Happy, Merry Everything!
PS.  Complexity of thought in Post 1445 has been simplified
And while editing, insights were intuitively (naturally) added ...

Thursday, December 22, 2016

1445 I'LL NEVER GIVE UP ON ...

I'll NEVER GIVE UP on my solution seeker's personal quest to
Tunnel ever more deeply within until strings of insight, highlighting
Deeper truths, are released from subconscious storage on
Intuitive trains of thought that guide my conscious mind to
Switch tracks from conventional thoughts, based in
Defensiveness (as proves commonplace to mankind), in favor of
Absorbing sound reason to redirect my existential path toward
Fulfilling my brain's potential to create change for the better in
Such a timely fashion as to inspire my spirit to encourage
My newfound sense of wholeness to make such good use of
My personal strengths as to employ courage, humility and
Determination so constructively as to consciously set
My defense system aside, freeing my intuitive smarts to
Tunnel toward exhuming, examining and healing
Childhood pain left festering alive, deep inside, and since
This plan of action (to expose pain, repressed behind
Denial's wall) has consistently led my newfound sense of
Wholeness toward achieving each next self liberating
Gain in personal growth (and since the sterling silver disc on
My beautiful necklace is too small to hold every word of today's
Intuitively penned train of thought), all you need do to see
The entirety of my wholesome, self respectful stance (concerning
Self improvement) clearly engraved upon the expansive nature of
My heart's capacity to give and receive love, freely, is to gaze into
My eyes, which, as you know, open windows into my soul, which
Peacefully embraces the partnership that has shaped up between
My brain's intuitive solution seeker and my creative center, and
As this partnership offers my spirit sound reason to thrive
My sense of wholeness grows ever more conscientiously aware of
The open-minded adult, whom I choose to be, rather than
Watching myself revert back into yesteryear's scared rabbit, who'd
Stuck her head into a defensive hole whenever thoughts of
Tomorrowland's Great Unknown stimulated sudden spikes of
Latent anxiety to leap out of subconscious storage, pinning
My spirit's natural sense of adventure to the mat until
My soulful need to create change for the better grew so strong as to
Compel me to develop today's self confident voice, which continues to
Summon the courage, humility, patience, determination and clarity to
Deploy my global message, concerning each person's existential need to
Embrace a Never Give Up attitude, concerning the concept of
Self improvement, which, BTW, is a term that is seriously in need of
Redefining, suggesting each person's existential need to spend time
In solitude, reflecting upon the wounded portions of his or her
Self image, which have been impatiently (anxiously) awaiting
Discovery and recovery; however this change for the better will not
Take place until our adult thought processors have insightfully redefined
Childhood's misperceived vision of self improvement for this reason:
Self improvement is not synonymous with striving toward perfection
Self improvement is synonymous with mind expansion, and as such
The only hindering factor, which locks mutually enriching, heartfelt goals
Beyond reach is your defensive wall, which blocks your narrow mindsets from
Absorbing insight-driven, intuitive guidance, concerning mankind's need to
Work together to carve a brand new mutually respectful path where
Tomorrow's positively focused change for the better awaits our arrival, as in:
Never give up working to free your whole self to be true to
Your innermost self, because, once you've worked through yesteryear's
Unresolved issues, your spirit, like mine, will have sound reason to
Sing out loud, clear as a bell:  Woo Hoo!  Thank goodness I chose to work to
Liberate my think tank from childhood's dark defensive side, because
I've absorbed sound reason to love being me!  (And since your intuition
Has chosen to watch my intuitive powers work toward achieving that
Illusive, existential goal, wouldn't you agree that everyone throughout
The world would benefit greatly if defensiveness was consciously placed
In time out in hopes of creating an ever widening circle of friends, whose
Voices, on a global scope, can be heard proclaiming:
Peace on Earth and good will to all ... as in Better late than never!
(Unlike Trump's voice, which has deployed his vision of stepping up
Production of nuclear weaponry to what end?  ... God help us, one and all!)

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

1444 NO DOUBT, THE ENERGIZER BUNNY IS YOUNGER THAN ME!

No time to write, today
Why not?
Two reasons, which intertwine into one:
Firstly, David, who plans to stay in town through
Next weekend ( his industry, literally
Shuts down between Christmas and New Years)
Wants to enjoy as much time with Ravi as possible, and
Since Celina's and Steven's realtor is eager to take
Photos of their house in readiness to list it on
Zillow, this week, we've arranged for a mutually
Advantageous play date with Ravi, today, freeing
Celina to accomplish whatever needs doing to get
Their house ship shape by Thursday at which time
Their photo shoot is scheduled, so having spent yesterday
Resting in hopes of refueling my depleted energy level
I'll be off to fetch our precious little dynamo, momentarily
BTW:  I meant to describe my birthday gift from
Katie, who knows me so well as to have created
A beautiful, hand made necklace by stringing
Together perfectly matched, tiny iridescent beads to which
A simplistic sterling silver disc has been attached, upon which
These words are clearly inscribed:  NEVER GIVE UP ...
NEVER GIVE UP ... on what?
Please stay tuned ...

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

1443 THEY DID IT!

Who did what?
Celina and Steven took a suprising leap of faith in that
They bought the house they fell in love with before
Selling their own, and their jubulience, concerning
The rosiness of their immediate future, was so palpable
When they chose to stop by with lunch, yesterday (thus
Offering a tasty repast to all of us as we shared in their
Happiness) so as to have swept Will's cautionary
Attitude and mine into the wings once the exuberance of
The younger generation proved so contagious as to command
Center stage after this caveat had been added:
The purchase of their dream house is contingent upon
The sale of their present home, suggestive of this fact:
All sense of their caution has not been tossed to the winds as
Had seemed true at first glance, and just as their exuberance
Proves contagious, so doth their self confidence, concerning
The positively focused bent of their decision-making
Process, which envisions the New Year as offering up
Sweet, juicy fruit as a just reward for having focused
Many years of staunchly dedicated work toward realizing
A host of personal and professional goals, each infused with
My son's step by step approach to life until Steven's courageous
Attitude, combined with falling in love, readied Celina to take
His hand as both fully embrace this leap of faith of their own

Monday, December 19, 2016

1442 MY FIRST NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION FOR 2017

Since my first thought's not always my best thought, here's
How my plan to retire my Fixer has changed for the better:
Rather than planning a retirement party for one of
My well-practiced, personal strengths, I've decided to
Consciously shrink my Fixer's hat down to size until
It fits comfortably upon the peacefully rebalanced state of
My unconventional, newly relaxed brain, and
If you ask why that adjustment rode out of my think tank
Over the weekend, which has continued to overflow
With family fun straight through our family's mutually
Arranged plan to take Ravi to the playground, today, I'd reply:
My heart can't lock out anyone who proves worthy of
Keeping close by, so, The Fixer is sure to come in handy whenever
My conscious mind feels need to hitch a ride on
An intuitive train of thought that inspires me to focus
More attentively upon tunneling back in time in hopes of
Figuring out the true causation, which had forced
A deeply valued, heartfelt friendship to derail ... and
Now tis time for my think tank to switch tracks from writing to
Readying myself to enjoy today's play date with Ravi, since
I'm hoping to fend off total exhaustion till tomorrow for
This reason:  Brad's plane does not take off till 8pm, tonight
Offering him the entire day to play with Ravi, whom
He loves and misses for months at a time, so though
I'm feeling pretty tuckered (because keeping up with
Family half my age as well as a fully stoked teen-ager and
A two year old dynamo for several days proves quite
A stretch for a person of my age) I hope to muster
The energy necessary to thoroughly enjoy our
House-runneth-over-with-people-we-love till Tuesday, when
All of me expects to thoroughly collapse until
Such time as my fully exhausted mind, body and spirit
Feel so naturally rested and refueled as to reflect
Ever more gratefully over my good fortune, concerning
The fact that my think tank has worked toward setting
As high a value on personal growth as I've come to
Raise the bar, concerning that which my sense of self respect
Deserves to receive from loved ones, whose conscious
Awareness has grown toward honoring my needs in
Similar fashion to the conscientious way that honoring
My loved ones' needs continues to pleasure me ... with
This caveat:  During recent years, I've resolved to honor
The needs of loved ones within reason, suggesting this
Rebalanced change for the better:  I've fully absorbed the importance of
Deepening  my sense of respect for my needs, as well, and
As long as today's intuitive train of thought remains in
The forefront of our minds, I believe you and I may clearly
See why common sense suggests tis wise to keep today's insight, concerning
My newly remodeled vision of The Fixer close at hand when my stories unfold ...

Friday, December 16, 2016

1441 AS WE NEAR THE NEW YEAR

As we near The New Year, 'tis resolution time
And with New Year's resolutions in mind
It seems that yesterday's question:
Who will I be after retiring The Family Fixer?
Still begs an answer ... however, here's why
Answering that question in depth will
Wait until this festive family weekend has passed:
My dear friend, Katie, is flying in, this morning
And after spending the entire day gabbing
About personal growth (rather than gossiping
As girlfriends tend to do), I'll pick up Ravi at
5PM, liberating Steven and Celina to continue
Readying their home to sell, because
This week, they fell in love (in an untimely fashion
With a larger house—no surprise, since falling
In love proves as unpredictable as life, itself)
Then, at 6PM, David and his 'little brother', Brad
Fly in to join in all the fun, as we all plan to see
Star War's Rogue One, tomorrow, after Ravi (who
Allong with Kathie, David and Brad, is 
Sleeping over, tonight) is picked up by Celina's mom
Freeing Steven and Celina (along with my niece and
Nephew) to join us at the movies followed by dinner—then
On Sunday, once Katie has flown home, David, Brad
Will and I plan to go to the football game—sooo
If any time to write opens up between now and Monday
I'll be surprised—and with hopes that your weekend
Shapes up to feeling as sunny as the one we're planning for
Ourselves—here's the short version of the answer to
The question:  Who will I be after retiring The Family Fixer?
Deeper truth suggests that only time will tell for this reason:
Whomsoever I continue to grow to be will be determined
Naturally by taking one intuitive step forward into the great
Unknown after another, and speaking of time
Tis time to switch screens from posting to flight tracker ...

Thursday, December 15, 2016

1440 WITH HOPES THAT YOU'LL CONSIDER INSIGHTS ADDED TO POST 1438, HERE THEY ARE

Now that thoughts of retiring The Fixer no longer release
Latent anxiety, concerning my loss of self worth, where
Might we be off to next?  Well, it seems that today's train of
Intuitive thought is alerting my conscious awareness to ask
Myself this question:  Having retired 'The Fixer', who will that
Leave me to be?  I mean, seriously—the fact that I'd unwittingly
Chosen the hat of Family Fixer as my own (at the age of three), and
The fact that fate deemed me fit to wear that hat until surprising
Conflicts (emergent within my birth family in the aftermath of
My father's death) saw The Fixer's hat weighing too heavy on
My head, might induce you to stop me, right now, to ask:
So what change, catalyzed by your father's death, caused
Your hat to grow too heavy to bear at that specific time in
Your life?  In answer to your question, I'd reply:
Upon further reflection, the hat, itself, had not become too heavy—
It had been stretched by these next two facts:  In addition to having
Held my think tank accountable for solving the problems of
Others, I'd unconsciously stuffed my own deeply repressed problems
Under my hat, as well.  And since I'd had no conscious clue of the depth of
My inner conflicts, stuffed deep inside my subconscious, behind my defensive
Wall of denial, my problems (along with the problems of others) had grown
Too big for The Fixer's conscious mind to comprehend, suggestive
Of this insight to which I had been blind:  Just as The Fixer could not
Solve my problems as long as the main root remained repressed behind
My self protective, defensive wall, she could not solve the main root of
Problems repressed, subconsciously, within the brains of her loved ones
So, no matter how long and patiently I'd pressed my heart and smarts
Against their defensive walls in hopes of coaxing them to unlock
Doors, behind which inner conflicts (that were not my own) had been in
Need of identifying and resolving—but not by me ...
And complicating matters further, this next insight comes to mind:
My defense system had not let me in on this next fact:  My most fearsomely
Repressed, king pin problem, concerning my wounded self worth
Had been stuffed under all of those problems at the bottom of my hat, since
I was three, and that insight answers why we need to hit bottom before
Coming to know ourselves in depth, and if you ask why all of my
Deeply secreted, interrelated problems had begun to seep out from
Under my Fixer's hat after Dad's death, while I'd continued to
Consciously, though unsuspectingly, misdirect my mental energy
Toward solving problems and resolving conflicts belonging to
The psyche's of loved ones, let's be reminded of this insight as well:
As long as I'd no conscious clue of how much subconscious angst
My defense system had continued to stuff under The Fixer's conscious
Radar, layers of defensiveness continued to swell, causing my hat to
Stretch over so much of my own repressed frustration as to block all sense
Of conscious awareness to the depth of my denial, and as long as my
Overgrown Fixer's hat covered my eyes and ears to my own deeply repressed
Truths, guess what else went undiscovered?  The Fixer's overgrown Hat had
Made me too blind and deaf to identify how often my mindset, concerning
My tainted self image, which having been buried alive within the dark side of
An unprocessed mind-space I nside my brain ever since Janet's death—had
Been slamming my smarts into my own defensive walls, dizzying
My adult think tank to spin away from the bright side after being
Blindsided by the dark side, time and again, and not until
My father's sudden death at 87, which created life changing circumstances
(Mirroring the depth of my mother's grief—borne by us both—in
The aftermath of my baby sister's death) did my mental processor, acting
Like a food processor, subconsciously spin both deaths into one, forcing me to
Make my way back through that same living hell as had been true after
My baby sister's sudden death at which time many of my budding personal
Strengths, enmeshing with the depth of my mother's grief, felt buried alive until
My father's death catalyzed my friendship with my beloved mother to grow
Every bit as confoundingly contentious as my mother's relationship with
Her mother (who had lived with us) had been, and thus have you been
Watching my intuitive powers working to piece together this puzzle
Concerning the classic ways that one generation's unresolved inner
Conflicts unknowingly inflict unresolved angst upon the next generation's
Head in terms of the sadly confounding deterioration of friendships, which
Had been treasured by both—until someone in the family feels compelled
To figure out what's actually going on—and over these past several years
You've witnessed this Fixer's brain power wear out completely as if
Fate felt need to force my hand to work at pulling my self-imposed
Family Fixer's hat off of my deeply confounded, pain-racked, grief struck
Head, at which time I found that the hat, covering so many problems, had
Grown as tight as a vice, which refuses to budge, and so it had to be
Pulled back from covering my eyes and ears in infinitesimal degrees
While The Fixer watched one deeply stuffed problem after another
Tumble out—and having penned this synopsis of the past several
Years of my life, hopefully you can clearly see why it took such
A long time for my exceptionally wearied mind to clarify how
Frequently my secreted storehouse of vulnerabilities had acted as
Personal liabilities (also stuffed under that proverbial hat), until
The Fixer's total collapse weakened my ego's persona so much that
My truth-seeking intuition was finally set free to power up and act like
A magician, pulling insights (rather than problems and conflicts) out
Of my Fixer's hat, and since insight into each of my repressed
Vulnerabilities was utterly shockingly revealed to my conscious
Mind—every insightful self revelation required all of the humility, courage
And mental strength that I could muster, suggesting why most of my energy had
Need to consolidate my mental concentration upon pulling each over grown
Rabbit out of my Fixer's hat, clarifying why, time and again, all of me felt
Need to hunker down to seek the missing key, which would open
The door in my subconscious defensive wall, behind which
The wounded self image of a three year old child, who had, deep
Inside her broken heart, unknowingly deemed her sweet, little self, such
A bad little girl as to have misjudged herself unworthy of receiving love, had
Remained buried alive, which answers why intuitive trains of thought
Guiding my smarts to spend time (wisely) in solitude, seeking
That missing key, which was hidden deep inside me, proves to be
The most valiant task that My Fixer has ever consciously chosen as
My very own, and so rather than seeing this tunneling quest as having
Detoured me from enjoying my life, I've instinctively known full well
That my choice to work toward exhuming the deepest, darkest secret, which
I'd kept from myself since the age of three, has been worth my time
Attention, and energy until my examination of each over grown scared rabbit
Which had repeatedly bitten into my sense of personal safety, was 100%
Necessary no matter how often my smarts felt spun into such a deep state of
Shock as I'd seemed to have turned into a stranger to myself, causing me to
Stop trusting that I'd known my innermost self, at all, until recently, when
Rather than watching myself turn into stranger-danger, I gained insight into
Exposing and understanding my secrets, and thus, time spent seeking
Identifying and releasing LATENT fears and anger, as well as
Time spent examining and calming TODAY's fears and anger, as well as
Time spent exhausting my think tank until all of me, being utterly spent
Required more time spent in solitude, doing nothing more than resting, until
Intuition signaled my spirit to arise to each next mental challenge, has continued
To gift my conscious awareness with so much valuable knowledge to
Absorb, concerning my need to create mental changes for the better, that
My power of intuition compelled my conscious mind to pen the same insights
Again and again and again, in similar fashion to the endless hours that Will had
Studied medicine for many years before believing himself wholly capable of
Picking up a scalpel, cutting into a live person, and feeling so confident in
The depth of his wealth of knowledge that he knew his patients would awaken
From reconstructive surgery, believing that, over time, physical therapists would
Guide their wounds to heal, just as two therapists, highly trained in reconstructing
Unhealthy subconscious trains of thought, which had formed negatively focused
Mindsets injured by PTSD (one being my EMDR therapist), have guided me to
Astutely oversee healthy transformations, taking place inside my brain, and
As this series of gainful transformations released latent pain, no anesthesia in sight
It has not been unusual for me to wander off my positively focused path each time
I'd found my smarts in a state of shock, after coming to see how often
The Fixer (my persona), had fooled me into believing that I knew myself in
Depth, when reality (in the aftermath of my father's death) showed me that
No one with the best intentions of helping others can gain control over
Problems and conflicts that exist within the subconscious portions of any
Brain other than one's own, and as opening channels of communication
Between subconscious pain and conscious awareness proves quite a feat, thus
Do we come to see that the exhaustion of my Family Fixer's mental energy was
Necessary before my smarts saw fit to seek professional guidance so astutely
Trained as to have known the necessity of guiding me, compassionately, to
Backtrack into my own private hell while simultaneously guiding me toward
Carving a forward-looking path that differs greatly from the one, which
I'd blindly carved for myself as an inexperienced kid, and thus have
I, finally, thoroughly worked toward absorbing this insight, which proves so
Hard for humans to swallow and wholly digest without experiencing
The mental recurrence of painful reflux:
The only person I can fix on a lasting basis is me!
And since you and I have worked to fully absorb this highly condensed banquet
Of scientific facts, this next fact can be seen as clearly as daylight at sunrise:
Once I'd removed The Family Fixer Hat, which had, over the years stretched
Far too big for my own good, I was able to see why Mother Nature had
Thought to cover my eyes and ears to my need to thoroughly absorb how
Many problems I'd taken on (which had rightfully belonged to others, who
Like me, have need to carve each next step of their own existential paths toward
Developing their potential to tap into their intuitive powers to seek insight into
Deeper truths, concerning their secreted vulnerabilities).  And, today, I
Can also see why my sights, concerning that which I'd chosen to
Believe as my proper role within my extended family would remain
Blinded by love from seeing how often my empathetic ways caused
The Fixer to be an enabler, who'd walked straight into solid walls until
My mental processor wore out so many times as to finally identify this insight:
Every time I'd knocked my head into the defense wall of a loved one, who'd
Feared peering inside into their own deeper truths, I'd also knocked my head into
A wall of my own, and thus has my quest to know myself in depth had need to
Tunnel within my brain space, ever more humbly, courageously, patiently and
Tenaciously in hopes of peeling away at outer layers of my painfully defensive or
Frustrated reactions before I could hope to shine intuition's light of insight upon
My need to strip away every last layer of my persistent resistance against giving
Up on communicating openly with those who'd feared communicating openly with
Themselves, and just as their defensive walls block them from seeking the missing
Key that will open the door, behind which expansive choices await their arrival, my
Defensive wall had blocked my conscious mind from sighting the missing key to
Unblocking my state of denial, and now, with key in hand, at last, I've walked
Through that open door and what did you watch me find, eager to be unchained
From the dark side of my past?  The negatively focused mindset, which had
Chained my mistaken self perception to the subconscious, darkly fearful side of
My mind, which had deemed me as such a bad child as to have caused so much
Pain to my birth family, as to have viewed any of my personal imperfections as
Deeming me unworthy of receiving love, so though I have been deeply loved
And though I've given love freely, forever, all thought of feeling worthy of
Receiving self love had been banished from my conscious (but not my intuitive)
Mindset until recently, and now, having wholly absorbed sound reason to
Welcome my positively focused imperfect self to feel completely at home in
My skin on the sunny side of the street, at long last, that door in my defensive
Wall, which intuitive insight has finally opened, has freed my think tank to
Reconsider choices, which had catalyzed latent anxiety to arise in the past
Suggesting that my whole brain feels wholesomely worthy of pleasuring
Myself, within reason, by expanding my scope of choices, knowing
Full well that my well practiced line of control, holding hands with
Common sense, will keep my wild thing from completely abandoning
My strong sense of self discipline, and having secured a healthy view of
The well-balanced adult, whom I've chosen to grow up to be, I no longer
Harbor that fearsome secret of unworthiness, which had, in the past, only
Leaked hints of reason to stop my Family Fixer from walking blindly into
Yesteryear's walls, and since hints were not enough to stop denial from
Deceiving me into believing myself walking forward, today's deeper truth
Has conveyed the depth of my belief in self-empowered trains of intuitive
Thought waves, acting like the tide, coming in and going out, for this reason:
Each time my sense of inner peace has absorbed reason to deepen
My conscious awareness opens to sense something positive that exists within
The negative, for example:  I've just absorbed sound reason to note that
My unidentified fear of unworthiness has actually served myself, my family and
Countless others well, and here's why that's true:  Over my entire life
I've been conscientiously instrumental in inspiring thousands of people
Including people I've never met (by way of articles written and the internet) to
Wonder if they, too, are every bit as capable of developing their intuitive powers
As has proven true of me, so anyone who's not closed their eyes or ears to
Strings of insight, which I feel compelled to pen, time and again, can work
Toward developing their innate potential to solve highly complex problems by
Taking time outs to calm frustration and anxiety, thus growing ever more prone
To release intuitive creativity, naturally, and more important than that insight is
This one:  Latent fear cringing inside me, which had caused my decision maker to
Tunnel ever more deeply through each stage of my own personal hell, back when
My Fixer had habitually walked blindly, into wall after wall), has served
A higher purpose, after all, in that intuition concerning my secreted past
Has continued to inspire my curious sense of insight to tap ever more deeply into
Enhancing my power of creativity, thus ensuring that each of my children was
Raised in such an unorthodox, positively focused, emotionally open and
Therefore safe environment as to have breathed life into the success-oriented
Attitude that proves inherent to Solution Seekers, whom all three have grown
To be for this reason: throughout each stage of life each one has continued to
Unwittingly watch and emulate their parent seeking to create change for
The better from the inside out!  And thus has each of The Fixer's unique
Problem-solving plans actually offered thousands of others sound reason to
Believe in their potential to take leaps of faith toward realizing long range
Goals, one step at a time, and since my brain holds a treasure chest
Overflowing with success stories that feel like jumping beans vying to be
The first freed from my memory bank, I'm eager to show you why
My little corner of the world has enjoyed sound reason to grow to feel ever
More safe, even to those who still have no clue of how fearful they are to
Tunnel toward deeper truths buried inside themselves, and here's why
That's true, too:  now that my defensive wall is much more transparent than
Opaque, I no longer harbor unknown fear of rejection, and since my peaceful
Smile welcomes others, sincerely, anyone who may have feared
My rejection, in years past, senses the sincerity of my change for
The better, which coming straight from my heart, reaches clear into
The core of my soul.  And if you ask why my fear of rejection has changed
For the better, let's shine a spotlight upon this next insight:  Until my twenties
I was unable to see my way clear to begin to create change for the better within
Until I began to read about raising children with democratic values, concerning
Mutual respect.  However, at that early time in my maturity, not one layer of
My defensive wall encountered reason to crumble without so much as
A warning until the depth of my repressed unhappiness with my marriage
Emerged, twenty years after I was an inexperienced bride, at which time,
My intuitive powers were still in serious need of tweaking, suggesting that
Creativity, alone, could not fix the complex nature of my marital problems
And since creative thinking had been my mainstay, that was the first time
That my Family Fixer's mental strengths came very close to
Wearing out, breaking down and hitting rock bottom, which—over
The long run—proved a good thing for this reason:  Once that layer of
My wall of denial crumbled without so much as a warning, my vulnerabilities
Began to show themselves to me—and ever since then, each step, taken on
This path toward deepening my self awareness, concerning need to
Comprehend which complex problems and conflicts are not mine to solve
And resolve (now that my sons are all competent adults), has led me toward
Exploring and reviewing countless trains of intuitive thought, each of which
Has led directly toward insights, such as today's insight, concerning
My having no idea as to where today's train of thought aims to take us
Into mental territory as yet unexposed—on the other other hand
The fact that I've matured, so as to walk this new path ever more
Peaceably into the great unknown with my sense of emotional security
Intact will continue to inspire my intuitive decision-maker to take an unending
Series of eyes-wide-open courageous leaps of faith rather than allowing
Subconscious anxiety, born of unprocessed childhood angst, which is still
Bound to arise, from time to time, to wrestle my adult potential to tap into
My core mental strengths to the mat, and since unidentified negativity
Collecting under my overstretched Fixer's Hat, no longer limits
My eyes-open-wide view of choices, I have a strong feeling that the dark side
Will have more difficult time blindsiding me as the future unfolds—and
Here's why that's true—having come to trust myself to know both sides of
Myself, the defensive opinions of others can't bamboozle me into believing
Myself unworthy of love, so—Oh wait—Though today's positive view of
My future has been enhanced by removing my Family Fixer's Hat, thus
Expanding my view of personal choices, which had felt off limits until
Recent years, I don't want to forget to mention that recent posts penned have
Also served to refresh my faith in my brain's potential to continue to develop
My intuitive powers to alert me to ready my restrengthened sense of
Wholeness to work at identifying each next mental breakthrough that
(Knowing me)  is certain to process its self confident way out of
Subconscious storage, thus stirring my curiosity to explore and post whatever
Life experience may freely (surprisingly) stream forth from my memory bank
Onto my computer screen, next, and here's why I believe that deeper truth to
Be true:  A plethora of success stories have yet to unfold, and as was true
In the past, I believe that each story penned will offer me additional insight into
Freeing the intuitive and creative portions of my brain to determine
Each next step of my existential path as peacefully and naturally as
This current train of intuitive thought has penned itself, just now
In fact, I can feel my current intuitive train of thought pulling
My think tank's need to reprocess this lengthy string of inter-related insights
Until it has been thoroughly absorbed into a rest station, momentarily, sooo
Having cooked up more food for thought than I'd consciously planned
That's a wrap for today ...  Whew! Or better yet—Woo-hoo! :)

Monday, December 12, 2016

1439 INSIGHTS STILL A POPP'IN

As you may have noticed, train of thought
Comprising post 1438 has not yet reappeared ...
You know what that means ... right?

Saturday, December 10, 2016

1438 WHERE MIGHT WE BE OFF TO NEXT?

After this post was published, so many inter-related insights kept popping out from under my thinking cap that I decided to transfer the expansive nature of this current train of thought into drafts, and that's where it shall remain until my active mind feels a sense of readiness to republish this stream of consciousness so that my power of intuition can pull my sense of wholeness into a rest station where my brain's angle of peaceful repose awaits to welcome all of me to relax my serious need to write at least long enough to free my sense of fun to fully enjoy the holiday season, which promises to offer up a cornucopia of festivities with my loved ones, who live both near and far ...

Friday, December 9, 2016

1437 HAVE I MENTIONED THE CUBS CREATION OF CHANGE FOR THE BETTER?

Have I mentioned why our recent trip to Chicago released
So much happiness, emanating freely from my spirit, each
Day, as I marveled at our good fortune to find ourselves
Enjoying the celebratory attitude, which, having expanded
Across the entire nation, was clearly expressed as pure
Delight throughout this momentous weekend?  

As fate would have it, we'd landed on the eve before
The city-wide parade, honoring the Cubs, which passed
Right by our downtown hotel, and though I could see
Everything from my window on the fourteenth floor
Nothing could stop me from mingling with
The high spirited excitement of the crowds, below

That evening, I texted photos of the parade to family and
Friends, and much to my delight, upon answering my phone
The next morning at 11AM, one of my favorite cousins was
On the line:  Are you in Chicago? he asked.    Yes!
So am I!  I drove in from North Carolina, all night, to enjoy
Yesterday's parade, and I'm driving back, this afternoon.
Where are you, I asked?
At Wrigley Field, getting shirts.  If you're free, I'm meeting
A friend for lunch at noon at a restaurant on the corner of
Michigan Av. and Wacker, and I'd love to see you.
OMG!  I'm so excited!  My hotel is on the corner of
Michigan Ave. and Wacker!  I can't wait to see you, too!

Once again, I marveled at fate and my good fortune to
Be here for Will's ortho meeting on that specific weekend!  

After enjoying lunch with one of my favorite people
I ubered to meet my sister at her son's home where
Several of us worshipped her adorable 21 month old
Grandson, whose antics kept us laughing for hours until
It came time for us to meet Will for dinner, after his
Ortho meeting, which had offered us reason to have been
Fated with the good fortunate to celebrate with all of
Chicagoland—as shown in the photos, below!


This third photo was taken, while I, mingling with
The celebratory crowds, stood, cheering, in front of my hotel as 
The Cubs, riding by in a series of open air, double decker buses, held
Their trophy, which had been coveted for 108 years, high, and thus did
Millions of die-hard fans share in the utter jubulience that's won when
A well practiced, never-give-up
Championship-winning-team-like attitude embraces
A positively focused attitude no matter the odds


Thursday, December 8, 2016

1436 UNISEX ... WHAT'S UP WITH THAT?

I believe in sensibilities inherent to both genders
I believe in sensitivities inherent to both genders
I believe in strengths inherent to both genders
I believe in many similarities inherent to both genders
On the other hand ...
I believe that when it comes to inherent differences
Men and women (who are not easily bamboozled by
Terminology deemed politically 'correct' by
Modern society) would be likely to agree with
My seriously considered perception that
Men are men and women are women, and
'Viva la difference!', which deems a word like'unisex' as
Ludicrous as beieving a unicorn, conjoined with a cow, can
Actually jump over the moon, and as such
I'd like to see unisex banished from the dictionary for
This reason:  Life proves naturally, profoundly cofounding
Without needlessly conjuring up words that
Do nothing more than inject further complexity of
Thought into the minute amount of common sense, which
Is becoming extinct more quickly than I can believe
PS
Guess what? I figured out how I got so old, so fast!
The birthday fairy had mistakenly recorded
My name and address on her annual to-do-list, twice!
And no matter how many times I've asked her to
Turn back time, she, like so many others
Feels too harried, flitting around, to stop
Long enough to consider the importance of
Creating change for the better by identifying and
Correcting her own mistakes, so
The way I figure it, is this:  I'm only 36 (and a half)!
And on that whimsical note, picture my imaginative
Spirit twinkling while my heart enjoys happy birthday
Wishes, conveyed in a variety of ways (picture my
(House resembling a flower garden) by dear friends and
Family, like Debbie, whose card arrived in my mailbox
Right on time (drapes wide open) as sunny thoughts fill
My mind of God, holding hands with Mother Nature, who
Have both come to see how much the human condition is
In need of guidance concerning need to heal yesteryear's
Emotionally repressed wounds from the inside out, and thus has
This deep thinking pair blessed us all with the capacity to
Consciously embrace each step we choose to take toward
Personal growth by freeing our brains' potential to develop
The super power of X-ray vision, thus empowering
Intuitive trains of thought to tunnel ever more deeply
Courageously, patiently and tenaciously toward gaining
Subconscious insight into our need to acknowledge
Negatively focused attitudes (based in wounds to our
Self image), thus empowering our conscious minds to
Create self respecting changes for the better from
The inside out as exemplified in recent posts, penned by
My brain which (feeling newly healed of deeply repressed
Layers of yesteryear's painful angst), has happily released
My corny sense of humor to end today's post on this
Playful note:  Imagine my personal strength of positive focus
Rising to meet today's challenge of greeting the first day of
The rest of my life by washing away any residue of
Yesteryear's negativity as I bathe my wholly feminine
Sponge-like brain within a refreshing fountain of youth in
Readiness to replenish my energy level to match Ravi's, who's
Sweet spring like spirit is napping, peacefully, beside me as
My smile and I muse over my good fortune of feeling worthy of
Beng such an integral part of the intimate circle of family and
Frends who plan to convene within our home in celebration of
My birthday, this evening, and as our party-like attitude is sure to be
Gaily enhanced by love, dancing freely from heart to heart
You can believe me when I attest to the fact that as I happily
Welcome each man and woman, who plan to enjoy each other's
Company, not one unicorn/cow or unisex will be seen downing cake or
Sipping wine ... though, uncharacteristically, I plan to consciously
Choose to loosen my reins of self control just enough to expand
My self disciplined mindset to fully embrace my natural sense of
Worthiness to freely and wholesomely indulge in both, from time to time! :)

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

1435 VIVA LA DIFFERENCE!

Just as ancient scrolls, in which bible stories offer us reason for
God's creation of warriors, armed with testosterone, I, with
Tongue in cheek, document Mother Nature as having seen need
To create a balanced sense of mutually respectful equality between
Men and women by empowering the warriors' soulmates
With the patience and courage, integral to peace-making estrogen
BTW, if you think that I awoke, yesterday, with any
Conscious thought of Mother Nature and God as soulmates
Please picture me respectfully suggesting that you think
Again—after you've freed your sense of humor to tickle
Your funny bone as mine is tickling me— Oh yes—one more thing:
If you think to ask why post 1434 has been edited to change to such
A great degree I'd reply:  Twas not conscious thought that chose
Those to make those changes but rather my power of intuitive
Thought, triggering my creative center to coax forth a stream of
Consciousness, offering us a rebalanced view of gender equality by
Connecting Mother Nature with God's reputation for
Omnipotence (which, if the truth be told, proves in need of change for
Better, from time to time), and though that bright idea has certainly
Turned up the wattage on my smile, a certain TV commercial has
Come to mind, which had once upon a time, offered the creative center
Of the human brain reason to heed this cautionary warning:
It's not smart to fool with Mother Nature!  So, with thoughts of injecting
A sense of personal safety into my editing process, I chose to tone down
My original take on her majesty's imperfections just as I've absorbed insight
Into rebalancing my negatively focused attitude, concerning my own, and if
Any one feels need to debate my use of creative license, streaming freely through
Posts penned, yesterday and today—Comment box always hungry to be fed ...

Monday, December 5, 2016

1434 THANK GOODNESS, I AWOKE WITH REASON TO CHUCKLE!

Thank goodness, Mother Nature, thinking to confer with God, had
A hand in deeming certain organs in our bodies (think lungs, livers and
Skin) capable of self regeneration

Thank goodness, Mother Nature also mentioned the necessity to
Gift our brains with the potential to magically generate brand new cells
Thus saving my think tank from becoming permanently worn to a pulp

Thank goodness, Mother Nature suggested blessing our brains with
Curiosity so as to influence our think tanks to seek answers
To thought provoking questions throughout every stage of life

Thank goodness, Mother Nature, came to realize that two of God's gifts of
Self empowerment (our defense systems and inuitive thought) compete for
Brain space, causing humans to wrestle with inner conflict

Thank goodness, Mother Nature's ability to communicate skillfully
Enabled her to express her perceptions so gracefully as to coax God to
Man up and graciously acknowledge that even omnipotence makes mistakes

Thank Goodness, Mother Nature's gentle persuasions offered God reason to
Assuage the anxiously conflicted minds of mortal beings with the gift of
Magical powers as compensation for afflicting us with inner conflict

Thank goodness, Mother Nature encouraged our Creator to confer upon our
Brains the magical power of creativity, which comes in handy when human nature's
Natural bent toward over-reactiveness tries to wrestle our smarts to the mat

Thank goodness, Mother Nature, knowing that perfection doth not exist
Offered God sound reason to forgive himself for causing good souls
To feel afflicted with wrestling with inner conflict so frequently

Thank goodness, Mother Nature suggested that she, too, had to muster the
Humility to forgive her own imperfections by disempowering her defense system
Which had blinded her from recognizing need to create change for the better, all around

Thank goodness, Mother Nature's insight, conveying need to identify and correct
Her own mistakes, charmed God into gifting every human brain with the potential
To discipline itself by working to develop a powerful line of self control

Thank goodness, Mother Nature, embodying the power of feminine mystique
Knew that humans, being over reactive, would benefit if gifted with the potential
To develop the higher power of (X-ray) vision in addition to the line of control

Thank goodness, Mother Nature had a quiver of insights which struck the bullseye
When God's thunderous reply crackled, like a bolt of lighting, across the entire sky:
WOMAN, THAT'S CRAZY! I'M CREATING PEOPLE NOT SUPERHEROS!

Thank goodness, Mother Nature, rather than taking offense, calmed God's wrath by
Gently conveying her meaning in depth:  The gift of intuition will act like x-ray vision
Exposing why self control, tightening into vice-like inner tension, limits our choices

Thank goodness, God got it and humbly offered mortals three gifts: Intuition, free
Will and forks in the road where we'd ponder upon expanding our narrow attitudes
(Based in anxious negativity born of undeserved guilt) thus liberating existentialism

Thank goodness, Mother Nature's smile sparkled so naturally that God openly
Admitted to having absorbed the value of challenging himself to expand his sights
When his original mindset saw need to expand, offering Adam a soulmate in Eve

Thank goodness, Mother Nature (spying Cain's defensive reactions grow so
Uncontrolled as to kill his brother) chose to brainstorm with God, who'd come to
Agree that two heads, bent toward creating change for the better, are better than one

Thank goodness, Mother Nature and God, brainstorming together, decided to
Gift the brains of future generations with the potential to develop the entire set
Of higher powers, penned above, thus equipping humans to resolve conundrums

Thank goodness, Mother Nature's presence enhanced God's desire to connect with
The soothing effect of woman's intuition, most especially at those times when
His headstrong omnipotence proved more than likely to run blindly into walls

Thank goodness, Mother Nature's descendent awoke, today, feeling my inquisitive
Power of intuition itching to brainstorm with my creative center so as to answer
This question:Am I the first who considered hitching Mother Nature's star to God's?

Thank goodness, Mother Nature's gift of humility suggested that I cast
That question into cyberspace rather than freeing my ego to run away with my
Brain like the dish ran away with the spoon after the cow jumped over the moon

Thank goodness, Mother Nature and I enjoyed sound reason to chuckle rather
Than feeling conflicted while wrestling with the presumptive mindset that God
Created man in his image, making a lesser being of woman, which is untrue

Thank goodness, Mother Nature guides my intuitive sense of creativity to
Seek deeper truths, which light my fire, igniting my eyes to sparkle with
Good natured mischief as I envision God and Mother Nature, hand in hand

Thank goodness, Mother Nature's heartfelt kindness has finally released my
Intuitive spirit to peaceably direct my sunny sense of wholesomeness to cease
Pressing my processor to simplify insights in last week's posts, ad nauseam!