So—what if my life had felt funny, sunny, bright and secure until right before my third birthday, when without so much as a warning, a series of blows hammered down on my head—Bam-Bam-Bam?
What if the weight of these blows darkened my little corner of the world in such confounding, scary ways that from then on my self confidence developed a need to know every detail about whatever I might decide to do before I did it—Whew!
In retrospect, this hope to preserve my sense of safety by creating an orderly world, free of turmoil, seems like a Herculean feat to expect of oneself—especially beginning at the tender age of three! I mean, how much of my world might I need to control before my heart FEELS safe? Before my mind FEELS peacefully at ease? And my spirit FEELS content, if not with the state of the world at large, then at least with my little corner of the world? What if this black and blue mind set, which had layered up when I was small, had catalyzed my shaping up into a world class healer? And what if I had to exhaust the strengths of my spirit, thoroughly, in order that I had no choice left other than to figure out how to heal—myself!
What if I awoke this morning, feeling the heavy weight of yesterday's brick atop my head?
What if I've awakened with this sense of heaviness for most of my life?
What if I know that the weight of the world is not mine to carry?
What if 'knowing' does not lighten what I feel?
What if I'd disappeared in a flash?
Won't the world carry on as it had before my birth?
On the other hand ...
What if the brick that lays heavily overhead is not atop my head?
What if this brick lays heavy within the subconscious of my mind?
What if I consciously choose to lighten my mind of that heavy weight, right now?
What if life is meant to be a surprise from my first breath through my last?
What if the unknown proves life's most frightening reality and enriching quality?
What if acceptance of life on life's terms expands my comfort zone?
What if expanding comfort zones deepen my sense of inner peace?
What if all of these what if's are not new to you or me—or Socrates?
What if these what if's make up the most realistic post that I've written, thus far?
What if I feel a whopper of a shift taking place inside my head?
What if, with time, I can 'brainwash' that brick right out of my mind?
What if today's CONSCIOUS AWAKENING lightens my attitude, concerning my role in life?
What if every post I've written has propelled this leap toward today's epic epiphany!
What if this shift is reflected in whatever pops out of my mind from now on?
What if each attitude shift (positive or negative) alters the path of our lives?
What if this shifting mind set empowers me to bounce along with a greater sense of ease?
What if my stories do the same?
Gosh! I sure hope all of the above is true!
And I'll bet you do, too!
JAnnie
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