Wednesday’s infusion of chemo went well. Only one medication from now on, the lesser of two evils to insure my platelets of not plummeting as happened with my last infusion. Luckily, infusion days have not been a problem as meds administered through my port before chemo to stave off nausea and dizziness prove effective for me. I didn’t zonk out upon coming home, and so far, today, on-going fatigue is my only side affect. During Wednesday’s appointment with my oncologist’s PA, I was reminded that chemo’s side effects are cumulative, so fatigue will be mine till my last infusion has passed and most likely for several weeks after that while awaiting surgery. Why grateful for fatigue? Months of fatigue beats months of nausea. Agreed?
🙋🏻♀️🌈🌻Annie
Uh oh!
I spoke too soon
By day’s end, yesterday
Fatigue found
A companion to
Keep it company as
A second side effect of
Chemo and steroids
Emerged, causing
Every cell that
Makes my body whole to
Do its own thing as
Though itching to get out
From under my skin
So sleep refused to come
As if repressed angst had
Need to release to
Protect me from
Succumbing to this most
Recent invasion of
Microscopic critters
Which have been
Swimming against
The current of my natural
Blood stream as though
This week’s toxic
Infusion of chemo
(Though less potent) is
So intent upon poisoning
The sarcoma that by
Nightfall it had lost
Its way, causing
Every fiber of
My being to direct
My over active brain to
Cope by hoping that
Sleep would come so that
With the start of
A brand new day
I’d feel better than
Had been true, yesterday
And having decided to
Take a break from
All of the anger
Raging on Facebook in
Hopes of regaining
The zen mental attitude
That has now escaped
Me, I’ve wiled away
These last few minutes
By offering up
An in depth answer to
The question concerning
How I’m feeling—however
No worries, because
Everyone has an off day
And we both know that
Given time, my body’s
Agitation will relax,
My mind will feel peaceful
And my spirit will
Rebound, transforming
Today’s angst into gratefulness
Tomorrow. And so
With hopes that your day felt
Better than mine
Tis high time to rest my mind ...
👩🏻🌈🌻Annie
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