Thursday, May 7, 2020

IMPULSIVITY IS EMPOWERED TO UNDERMINE MY PROCESSOR’S NATURAL ABILITY TO DETERMINE CLARITY

As yesterday's post proved in need of lots of mind bending work concerning clarity,
I’m glad to say much of that work was completed, late last night, in hopes of enticing you to review insights, which make much more sense, today, than had been true when my wording had reflected the complexity of thoughts, which, having filtered readily from subconscious storage into the conscious portion of my mind, had not yet been productively re-organized for public consumption.  So here I am apologizing for having published insights prematurely, which upon reflection proved so raw as to have been served up half baked.
Your well-meaning, yet impulsive friend,
🙋🏻‍♀️Annie
PS
If any mind bending glitches undermining clarity remain in
My previous post, please include them in my apology as
Yesterday saw me sitting in the legs up chemo chair from
1 to 6pm, editing away, while steroids were also dripped into
My port, so that upon awakening! this morning
My processor continues to feel discombobulated from a sense of
Dragging chemo fatigue riding a chemically induced high, simultaneously
And thus, would I like to set the record straight by clearly stating that
My having chosen to document how surreal it feels to
Seek out clarity in real time while
Infusions of chemo, working toward eradicating
A vicious tumor while anemia leave sme short of breath, is
Asking quite a lot of my brain, every day, so
Thank you, brain for continuously aiming
Your best shot at lassoing
Every insight-driven bulls eye that
Pops up, even those which tend to gallop through
My hard working processor in a fuzzier state than
The current condition of my conscious awareness can grasp
And being that the two hour time difference between
Houston and our desert home saw our phone awaken
My wearied think tank much too early, my brain just
Hung a gone fishing for insights on my forehead
Meaning, I’m about to try for more shut-eye before
Heading off to Mayo for the shot that stimulates
My bone marrow to produce a well balanced variety of
Blood cells to replace those that my buddy
Chemo inadvertently shoots full of holes ... ohhhm
Zzzzz 😴

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