2018—HEAD ON COLLISION Part 4h

By Jove—I’ve got it!
Got what?
The answer to the riddle explaining why
My storyteller’s been in the wings awaiting
Her cue to reclaim center stage:
A subconscious wrestling match, which
Usurped my brain’s center ring, has been
Taking place between my retired Fixer and
My conscious but darkly clouded awareness
And with that insight clearly in view
I know why my head felt heavily troubled and
My spirit felt weighted while
The blurry nature of this inner conflict drove
The conscious portion of my mind to feel
Intuitive need to enhance and hone
The train of thought that kept
Chugging away within the post entitled
2018—HEAD ON COLLISION Part 4g until
Today's flash of insight, which has been attempting to
Brighten my mind so as to lift that weight off my spirit
Made its way out of the foggy tunnel, which separates
Darkly clouded subconscious repression from
Fully conscious awareness, and
Not until that insight emerged wholly formed and
Clear as sunlight did crstal clear clarity
Lift ft my spirit high enough to see what
Has been peeping out from behind my defense system's
Wall of denial, all along, and that would be:
A power-struggle amongst me, myself and I, and once
My conscious awareness stood up so courageously as to
Peaceably face the fearsome nature of that inner conflict in the eye
That’s when the spotlight of insight, beckoning
My conscious awareness to pull itself together, freed
The sum of my inner strengths to feel
So wholly relieved of inner turmoil as to steer
Today’s intuitive train of thought, which has been
Running in circles, to switch tracks so as to approach
The rest station at the end of the tunnel, where
My restored sense of wholeness awaits to offer
My inner sense of peaceful repose a warm welcome home, and
The only thing that’s changed is this:
My attitude—which (having chosen to embrace
The patience necessary to tolerate the mental tension that
Intensifies whenever my subconscious resistance to move through
The mental disorder that accompanies each next
Personal growth spurt), has readied my mind’s eye to
Take a leap of faith toward challenging repressed fear to
Emerge and bow to courage, freeing my intelligence to
Come face to face with the reality of a deeper truth that
My defense system had blocked my conscious awareness from
Acknowledging with clarity intact—whew!

"Now it is true that the nature of society is to create among its citizens an illusion of safety, but it is also absolutely true that the safety is always necessarily an illusion.  Artists are here to disturb the peace."    —James Baldwin

Before calling today's post a wrap
It should come as no surprise that
I'd like to expand upon
The insights offered up by Mr. Baldwin:
I agree that society's creation of safety is a necessary illusion
I also agree that artists are here to disturb the peace
And in addition to those insights, I believe
Artists are here to draw forth strings of insight that
Enhance inner peace once the spotlight of insight illuminating
The primary causation of emotional disturbance has surfaced

PS. To the best of my ability the enhancement of the post entitled:
2018—HEAD ON COLLISION Part 4f finally feels complete