Yesterday, I was awakened at dawn when an intuitive train of thought guided the conscious portion of my mind to pen a post in such a way as to offer you a snapshot of the emotional conflict that is triggered whenever something experienced, today, arouses deeply repressed memories, which had heaped undeserved guilt upon your young head, to swirl around within the subconscious portion of your mind, and as long as the emotional arousal of unidentified moments from your past run into an experience that you’ve come to value highly, today, conflicting emotions, crashing into each other, will create a sense of internal confusion, signaling anxiety, born of combustible upheaval, to dizzy the intelligent clarity of your thought processor, and once anxious tension electrifies the very air we breathe, our defense systems place our survival instincts on alert, which, in the absence of a well,practiced, line of emotionally self disciplined control, catalyze our brain functions to switch tracks away from intelligent, solution seeking thought processing toward charging every ion of mental and physical energy to fight/flee/freeze, thus limiting our conscious choices as if to save our lives from that which feels like a near and present danger closing in when time well spent in deep contemplation releases crystal clear insights concerning reality, which illuminate this fact: The danger we fear is actually long past; however the haunting nature of that danger will continue to stimulate anxiety to arise anew as long as fearsome memories lumber around within the caged state of emotional repression inside our heads.
At first, inner need to retrieve anesthetized emotional reactions feels so eerie as to echo the same degree of fear that we’d felt during those childhood moments when fate offered your connection to inner peace and personal safety (and mine) sound reason to shatter, arousing spiking anxiety to alert your survival instincts (and mine) to remain on guard 24/7, and thus did we develop tightly wound traits, which, with EMDR therapy, will uncoil, over time, so as to release inner tension so slowly as to maintain whatever vestiges of personal safety we’ve managed to regain as adults.
As the astutely trained therapist encourages reoressed fear to give way to courage to explore today’s anxious reactions ever more deeply than had been possible before we set out on a quest to become intimately acquainted with fears that we’d denied as our own, you and I will continue to take cautious steps forward toward identifying emotional terrors, which have remained buried alive deep inside the subconscious portions of our brains.
Once insight, concerning each stormy terror, which was much too emotionally complex for an intelligent child’s processor to fathom, has been clearly identified, contemplated and understood by the knowledable adult whom you and I have chosen to grow to be, festering wounds to our self esteem are healed and self imposed guilt, which has haunted our conscious awareness, forever, melts away, layer by layer, clearing our head space to feel so free of black and white misinformation and misperception as to inspire our processors to plant a garden of insight-driven, intuitive thoughts that flourish so as to blossom with a technicolored sense of deeper truths that nourish our newly healed connection to inner peace straight into the very core of our good souls. And having watched us working toward carving a path toward recreating a well balanced sense of self, the spirit of Socrates will swoop down from in high to whisper classic words of wisdom into ears that hunger for insight, and once it becomes apparent that our quest is meeting with success, the sage will smile while offering us both a healthy high five before the flutter of his wingspan takes flight to soar on high until his mind’s eye spies another deeply troubled, good soul, who, having little conscious clue of the courageous quest for inner peace that lies directly ahead, is not yet aware of the kind hearted spirit of the sage, who, armed with a back pack bursting with classic insights, is about to perch on the shoulder of another guilt-ridden guy or gal, who’s about to get lucky as bright flashes of insight spotlight deeper truths that relieve good people of undeserved guilt, which runs interference with our intelligent connection to solution seeking smarts more frequently than the conscious portion of our thought processors know.
Want a hint that will help you to clarify information that
I chose to smoosh into yesterday’s post so as to simulate
Your defense system thwarting your think tank from
Easily absorbing knowledge that is
Readily available for public consumption?
Hopefully, tomorrow will offer up time to
Lessen your frustration, born of my having caused
Your processor to experience a sense of heightening
Confusion simulating the defensive uprising of
Frustration we feel when subconscious fears, haunting
Our conscious minds, give rise to emotional reactions (based in
Repressed memories) that remain so consciously numbed as to
Be unexplored, spotlighting the fact that our defense systems are
Preprogrammed within the womb to deceive
Our conscious awareness to misperceive
The real reason as to why inner peace—shattered during
Childhood’s deeply distressed, most confounding
Moments of emotional upheaval—has not yet been
Mindfully reassembled, piece by missing piece, so as to
Recover your mind’s long absent, deeply deserved angle of repose—
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