A world of difference exists between lugging forward
Subconscious guilt (which weighed undeservedly so heavily on
My spirit as to have aroused My Fixer to feel accountable for repairing
That which proved beyond my control) vs consciously
Acknowledging those times when my intelligence has need to partner with
Creativity to conjure up a plan, which proves so simplistic as to offer
My spirit sound reason to smile (proactively) each time I choose to
Gift my loved ones (whose spirits are dragging with weariness from
Wrestling unsuccessfully against life's unresolved dilemmas) with reason to
Feel uplifted as we all partake in a cup full of smiles sweetened with
Comforting words as naturally soothing as a balm, and each time
We encourage each other to switch tracks from negatively focused
Attitudes toward co-creating change for the better
Hope, renewed, may linger longer than
Than the brief length of time that we'd spent together
As the simplicity of this plan entices fear-based frustration to
Relax, all around, the contagious nature of serenity reduces
Muscle tension, if not for the long haul, at least temporarily ...
And having spent these past four days at the bedside of
Will's brother (where we also commiserated tenderly with
His wearied, care-taking wife), tis time for us to
Board our flight, stow our carry-ons, sit back, buckle up and
Relax, having placed our faith in our pilot's expertise to
Fly this bird across the sky while thoughts of loved ones, who
Having chosen to retire in Santa Fe, had need to acknowledge this reality:
Though life lived within this laid back land of enchantment had
Offered both an enriching sense of heartfelt contentment over these past
Fifteen years, medical facilities prove inadequate when we, who
Feel startled upon staring advanced age in the eye, are in need of
Intensive medical care, and as reality has charged
Our loved ones' intelligence with effecting change for the better with haste
Tomorrow sees Will's 80 year old brother being transferred by
Private ambulance from this clean but dilapidated
Long term care facility in favor of taking up permanent residence with
His wife at his side within a gracious medical facility, situated in
One of Albuquerque's lovely southwestern mountain settings where
Those in need of attentive assisted, senior living dwell in
Close proximity to a staff of highly trained professionals, offering
An incapacitated husband and his exhausted wife a greater sense of
Inner peace than has been true since my brother-in-law's physical and
Cognetive decline began to grow ever more transparent, over these past
Two years, and though tranquil is not what I'd felt while hugging
Our loved ones good-bye, the fact that they are about to proactively create
A new normal for themselves within a compassionate community where
My brother in law will receive professional care, 24/7, is
Truly a comforting relief, most especially because his wife is scheduled to
Undergo total knee surgery, followed by a grueling course of
Physical therapy in less than two weeks time, and the fact that their move is
Imminent frees Will's mind and mine to return to our home in readiness to
Fly to the west coast, because upon answering my cell phone, today.
I listened to Barry express his dismay over the fact that
Seven year old Tony had broken both of his wrists ... Ohhhmmm
A world of difference often exists between happiness and serenity
And here's how EMDR therapy clarified that reality for me:
I do not necessarily feel happy while feeling
Soulfully saturated and thus serene in regards to the person
I continue to conscientiously choose to grow to be, and each time
I consciously relax The Fixer (minimizing reason for my anxiety to
Strike when fate offers my loved ones yet another turbulent ride through
The rapids) this change for the better concerning my attitude, which
Proves to be within my personal realm of control, serves to
Calm me enough to S oothe distress from escalating unnecessarily, all around
And if you ask me to specify which change for the better empowers
My presence to feel as naturally soothing as a balm, I'd reply:
Rather than envisioning myself as self appointed
Chief problem solver in charge of solution seeking, my newly
Relaxed self image tends to sprinkle a consciously readjusted
Positively focused personal presence of gentle repose throughout the room ...
Today, when my ear alerts my mind to respond to a loved one's
Distress signal of SOS, rather than subconsciously feeling
Anxiously responsible for ensuring everyone's safe-keeping, thus
Transforming my think tank into the life raft upon which
All feel need to cling for dear life, I see myself as
An intuitive human being, whose inner compass directs
My processor to offer compassionate, clear-headed support to
Those who, feeling confused and challenged while advancing
Through a near and present danger, keep their eyes, ears and
Intelligence trained upon reaching that which feels like (and
May prove to be) a distant shore, and in order to fully embrace
This attitude of tranquility before anxiety strikes, all I need do is
To switch tracks from yesteryear's mindset, which had
Charged my battery with feeling personally responsible for fueling
The life raft, transporting all of my loved ones through
Every next mind soaking, spiritually exhausting set of rapids
Toward feeling like a calmly supportive compass ... Ohhmmm
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