30 IN AWE AGAIN—FOURTEEN COUNTRIES!

Today I awoke with insight streaming through my mind.
I love when that happens!!  :-)

Today I know why yesterday's sensations of awe popped out of my memory.

I experience sensations of awe each time a new country appears on the map, pointing out where HAVE YOU GOT A CLUE?  OR IS YOUR BRAIN STILL FOOLING YOU? is being read.


Fourteen countries, so far ...
Wow!


'Unbelieeebbbable!'


Unbelievable?  Why?  Because knowing myself (?) I'm surprised at the unbelievable amount of courage I need to muster before I can share personal details with so many people I don't know.


Good thing I choose to dive into the deep and retrieve portions of my 'voice', which I'd no clue of having repressed when fear stunted the development of the self confident side of my mind!


Lots of I's in those sentences.
Not a you to be found.
Why?
Because—


No one
Was to blame for my fear
Other than
The fickle finger of fate


As my teenager suggested
I had lots to learn
About developing
My arrested self-esteem


As

Each of us harbors

Subconscious vulnerabilities

That we're afraid to see

I didn't begin to grow self aware
Until I felt worthwhile enough
To identify traits, which made up
The sum of my parts!


Each time unidentified insecurities
Eat at my peace of mind
Today
I remind myself of these facts:


Problems precede introspection
Introspection precedes insight
Insight precedes comprehension
Comprehension precedes self confident growth


At those times when I 'forget' to remember those facts
And my negative attitude sucks me into a maze

Where I lose sight of my positively focused path

I ask a positively focused person for help


Once I've redirected myself toward positive focus
I work patiently until resolution of inner conflict is mine
Why?
Because


Attitude is everything
And the only person
I can change is
Myself


So—if
Positive focus precedes conflict resolution

And conflict resolution transforms survivors into thrivers.
Then I'd rather thrive than survive—how'bout you?


:-) Annie