1377 HMMM ...

So what's a fan to do if her (his) positively focused, little voice
Has laid all of the groundwork and cheered its heart out, year after year
In hopes of teamwork making a first down that never happens ... what then?
Perhaps it's time for a change in paradigm  ...

1376 LISTEN TO YOUR LITTLE VOICE

Though we often hear:  Listen to your 'little voice'
We're rarely told that two voices speak inside our heads
No need for me to repeat their names, unless you're
'Reading my mind' for the very first time, and

If that's true then you may want to read
The 'piece of my mind', offering insight into
Anxiety, confusion, time out and clarity, which
Intuitive thought coached me to pen, yesterday

When both voices (one, focusing on the negative while
The other focuses on the positive) speak at the very same time
Inner conflict creates emotional static, which runs interference with
A calm, singleminded sense of clarity, gaining first downs

(With football season upon us, my lucky socks await in readiness
To click my heels, together, ala Dorothy's ruby slippers, while
The positively focused side of my voice cheers our team toward
Achieving Super Bowl victory, one first down at a time ...)

1375 LET'S COMPARE APPLES TO APPLES

Having learned to differentiate between those times when
A voice inside my head is speaking to my conscious mind
Through the emergence of subconscious fear vs times when
My intuitive voice is coaching me to muster the courage to
Calm the voice of fear makes all the difference, concerning
Whether or not I retreat from a daunting challenge or continue to
Work, patiently, toward achieving a long range goal that
Remains just beyond reach, and if it's true that
Fear exacerbates inner conflict, thus heightening confusion, which
Diminishes clarity, then you can see why I choose to take a time out from
Decision-making until fear (which stimulates my defense system's
Alarms to blare by striking my brain with spikes of anxiety alerting me to
The possibility of a real and present danger closing in) grows so quiet as to
Free my power of intuitive thought to do its best work, re-organizing
My thought processor to function in a well balanced state so as to
Rouse deeper truth (wisdom passed down through the ages), which
Speaking through my intuitive voice, alerts the clarity of
My openly receptive mind to remember this timeless insight:
If I am to enjoy a well balanced life then each time anxiety strikes
My brain is signaling me to mindfully coach my smarts to
Take a time out to calm my stressed thought processor so as to
Minimize the over production of adrenalin thats pumping through
My blood stream, thus restoring a peaceful sense of order within
My conscious mind in the same way that I mindfully prepare
My brain to calmly plan out a well organized day ...
In short, each time I remember to compare the emergence of
Intuitive thought to the emergence of deeper truth, based in
Wisdom passed down through the ages, I improve my ability to
Ensure that my line of reasoning is comparing apples to apples ...

1374 FINALLY!

Our 'staycation' is winding down, today
As it happens, I'm too tired to color in the bigger picture of
This action packed family time until my brain and body feel re-energized ...
Oh!  Wait!  Just to be clear ...
FINALLY does not refer to having hugged and kissed each other, good bye
FINALLY refers to the fact that for some unknown reason
My power of intuition coached my think tank to advance toward
Numbering this post 1374 as if to signal my conscious mind to
Ready itself to peaceably embrace the subtle suggestion that
Some pattern of thought is entering a period of transition, preceding
An, as yet, unidentified change for the better, and as time marches on
I have no doubt that my conscious mind will come to
'See and share' whatever this changing pattern may be with you ...
On the other hand, here's a pattern that remains unchanging:
Though family togetherness offered me no free time to write a new
Post, over these last couple of days, intuition continued to work at
Improving Post 1373 61H, which is titled:  LET'S WORK AT ENCOURAGING
CONSCIOUS AWARENESS TO SWITCH TRACKS FROM
EXACERBATING CURRENT WORRIES, UNNECESSARILY

1373 61H's LET'S WORK TO ENCOURAGE CONSCIOUS AWARENESS TO SWITCH TRACKS FROM EXACERBATING CURRENT WORRIES, UNNECESSARILY

Though I've come to understand that peace of mind relies on naming
And taming subconscious hot buttons, which would otherwise, upon being
Pushed, reawaken yesteryear's sleeping dogs, whose bark runs interference with
Clarity's connection to logic, I've also learned why naming and taming
Childhood's unprocessed fears does not equate with living stress free:
It's natural for daily life to irritate our conscious awareness with current worries that
Feel less like stinging bees, more like pesky flies, buzzing around in our minds, as
We worry over having angered a loved one who is not angry, or
We try to fit so much into a busy day as to frazzle our nerves or
We feel just like the white rabbit, late for important dates, or
We watch the bills exceeding our budgets or
We have no clue how to recognize power struggles driving entire families crazy
In short! we set such high expectations for ourselves (and everyone else) as to
Sweat so much small stuff as to ignite anxiety to flare for countless reasons ...
However, leaning toward kindling mild attacks of short-lived anxiety
Does not equate with feeling so deeply stung by sudden eruptions of
Repressed anxiety, resulting in sleep deprivation or taking
An ambulance ride to the ER, where an angiogram verifies
The cardiologist's diagnosis of Ventricular Takotasubo, caused by
An over production of adrenalin, resultant of heightening degrees of

Stress, *repressed so deeply behind my defense system's

Wall of denial as to have completely anesthetized my conscious awareness from
Feeling the depth of my emotional distress until my body reacted in such
A life threatening manner as to inspire my intuition (in the aftermath of
That experience) to alert my conscious mind to grow ever more
Cognizant of my need to identify decisions that, retrospectively, had been
Based in unconcious eruptions of yesteryear's unprocessed anxiety, which
Upon surfacing, had caused my conscious mind to feel so confused as to
Focus my think tank toward skepticism of making sound use of my noggin to
Voice my unmet needs aloud, and since, over time, this negatively focused
Thought pattern accomplished nothing more than to darken my self perception
My intuition whispered into my courageous ear of need to heed
Common sense, which implored me to open my eyes wide enough to 'see' that
Narrowing my focus to black or white, right or wrong, had left no wiggle room for
Any plan of action, requiring mind expansion, and since that insight made
Such good sense, my thought processor began to absorb sound reason to coach
Courage to convince fear to ride piggyback so, together, they could take
One proverbial, intuitive leap of faith after another until both sides of my mind
(Courage reining in fear) began to act in my best interest by functioning
In tandem, freeing my think tank to problem solve as a well balanced whole, and
Thus do both sides of my mind concur that I can rely on
My well practiced power of intuition to 'see' which trains of thought prove
As layered and complex as is true of my sliding spectrum of anxiety, which
Has been known to scale up and down, depending upon which
Attitude is, momentarily reigning supreme over my decision making process:
Fear based inner conflict or the courage of my deeply considered conviction

Though low levels of anxiety are meant to alert our smarts to be
Consciously aware of those times when we're testing
Our personal patterns of thought to 'see' whether we're defining
Our high minded principles, which guide our lives, so narrowly as to
Blind our perspective from expanding our horizons, sudden spikes of anxiety
Often indicate need to stop to consider whether fear is stimulating
Confusion, due to inner conflict, to escalate, unnecessarily, at those times
When some part of a current situation stimulates a latent sense of
Undeserved guilt to burst out of file #3, where upon leaping to the surface of
Conscious awareness in its *unprocessed* still festering state, yesteryear's
Repressed, unresolved terror of emotional abandonment may run
Interference with today's sense of clarity, thus catalyzing

A confused state of inner conflict that causes you to mistakenly feel as if

Your current situation is every bit as treacherous as had been true of

A past experience, which, still repressed in it's unprocessed state, had
Literally scared you witless at an earlier age when the undeveloped nature of
Your youthful thought processor had been taught by authority figures to believe
That your personal sense of safety depended upon patterning your decisions as
Solely black or white, right or wrong, constricting your sense of
Existential individualism from breathing, freely, due to this fact:
Had your actions deviated in any way from adhering to parental authority
You'd experienced sound reason to fear paying harsh consequences

And since I've experienced that same unconscious reaction too many
Times to count, my intuitive powers have sensitized my conscious mind to
My need to take a time out on the spot to call forth and employees of 
Common sense when heightened levels of latent anxiety, leaping out of
File #3, might, otherwise, continue to scare my think tank as senseless
Today, as had been true when over-reactive giants had scolded
A good, little girl, so severely, that her spirit submitted, fearfully, to
Their their will until, over time, my brain had, unknowingly developed
A pattern of thought, concerning a distorted view of reality, as seen through
The eyes of authority figures, whose unrealistic expectations had anxiously
Been adopted as my own ... and thus was my inner control freak born

In recent years, you've watched my power of intuition work to sensitize
My conscious mind to identify specific times when my thought processor
Has need to stop stressing by reconsidering this insight into deeper truth:
There are times when a current situation will stimulate file #3 to
Fly open, today, releasing an unprocessed, unresolved fear, which causes
My think tank to confuse apples with oranges; therefore, each time
Anxiety escalates, I've trained myself to take a mental time out on the spot to
Calm my think tank to consider whether or not my natural survival instinct
Is confusing an unprocessed, terrifying experience from the past with
A fear-based feeling that a 'near and present' danger (which is NOT closing in)
Is about to threaten my sense of safety, today, and each time I remember to
Take that mental time out on the spot, my sense of clarity grows ever more apt to
Touch base with today's reality for this reason:
I look within to 'see' whether or not my present bout of elevated anxiety is
Directly related to a fear-driven portion of my imagination, which
(Generated by negatively focused energy) is fabricating a train of thought, which
Still fears yesteryear's real (unprocessed) danger when, in fact, that danger
No longer exists anywhere other than within file #3, which remains stubbornly
Entrenched in an unexamined state, deep within until my hyper vigilant
Control freak's imagination pushes the hot button that catalyzes that specifics file
Stored within my subconscious, to spring open, releasing yesteryear's
Unresolved fear to fling my relaxed state of inner peace into the flames of chaos
Yet again ... So you can see why I give thanks for having worked through
Unprocessed emotional pain until insight had been gained, concerning
My need to develop the listening skills necessary to tune into
My intuitive voice, which turns down the volume on
Fear-based inner conflicts, absorbed during childhood, in favor of turning up
The volume on the courage of my deeply considered, personal convictions

Though Socrates is often quoted as having stated:
The unexamined life is not worth living
That statement seems so bold as to inspire me to wonder if
When originated, the strength of this statesman's declaration
Had not been meant to stand alone, and with that thought in mind
Let's imagine me taking a seat on a white marble bench in
The peanut gallery of the senate, my attention held rapt in readiness to
Absorb the depth of meaning that would surely have fleshed in
The sage's deeper meaning (had Socrates' bold oration not inflamed
The defensive reactions of his peers, who had literally made use of poison to
Silence the power of his intuitive voice), so, had that not happened, here is what
I'd wait with bated breath to hear during my imagined travel back in time:
The unexamined life is not worth living ...  for this reason
And then, naturally, my wise counselor would go on ... and on ... until
His meaning was clearly absorbed by every mind that had once
Feared the voice of this sage, whose courageous spirit had implored
His peers to save themselves from retrospectively suffering
The regretful throes of self defeat by mastering the courage to
'Out' subconscious fear in order to free their minds to accompany
His as, together, mankind adventures ever more deeply into 
The great unknown, where, rather than keeping scary secrets from
Ourselves, we resolve inner conflicts by opening our ears to
Constructive plans of action, based in insight that thinks to
Employ positive focus with such repetitive consistency as to
Create change for the better by considering needs, all around
And if you're getting sick of my repeating all of this then please
Feel free to take a time out from 'reading' my mind, because
I'm determined to blend every one of these interrelated
Highly detailed insights ever more deeply into file #1 of
My memory bank's conscious awareness, forever!
So, hopefully, you've come to see why, while working to expand
My comfort zone's horizons, I've come to place my faith in this fact:
I can rely on my intuitive, well developed sense of
Self disciplined awareness to protect me from over reacting when
My fear-based buttons are pushed as well protecting me from
Allowing courage to push the envelop too far ...
And thus, time and again, do we return to:
Balance in all things

1373 60H's WHAT A DIFFERENCE A DAY MAKES ... AGAIN!

Twelve days in Paradise
(The flu could not challenge my idyllic state of mind
For this reason:  I've thoroughly absorbed the concept of
Perfection as non-existent)

Perhaps twelve days in paradise is my limit
For this reason:  Though I've been calling it a night
By 9PM, I awoke, today, feeling exhausted, as though
Nursing a hangover after being drunk on love

Yesterday, Will and I agreed to watch Tony and Ray, today
And as the boys are truly excited to have us all to themselves
I'll not disappoint them ... However, upon awakening, feeling
More exhausted than refreshed, I made this decision:
Tomorrow, I'm doing nada.  Why?
Because my memory's file drawer #1 just flew open, and
As certain snapshots flashed before my eyes, I pictured
My exhaustion, which had lasted many weeks after
My creation of an idyllic Passover weekend for
Family and friends, so upon awakening exhausted, this morning
I was mindfully attentive when intuition whispered of
My need to plan differently, this time, ensuring that I enjoy
Our family's sense of togetherness without depleting every last drop of
My energy as had been true in March ... And with intuition
 Heightening my sense of conscious awareness to focuse on
Creating change for the better, indight into common sense will
Guide my whole sense of self to walk forward on the path where
I, taking heed of my personal needs, will keep my spirit feeling
Younger than springtime though as years continue to pass
Deeper truth, highlighting reality, suggests that my age
Catches up with me, none the less! which is why
It's imperative that positive focus and reality go forth, hand in hand

1373 59H's WHAT A DIFFERENCE A DAY MAKES!

So okay not one day ... It took two two days before
Everyone's health changed for the better, and since
Certain strains of flu are known to cause misery to hang
Around for quite a spell, while, luckily, this one did not
We're already laughing at so many adults, lining up in wait to
Bow head in worship of the porcelain God on bended knee
In case you're wondering why children weren't included in
The sentence, penned above, that's because they've not yet
Developed the awareness to sense when self control must be
Summoned, on the spot, to reign supreme over irritants that stimulate
Our bodies' natural bent toward reactiveness, suggesting
That couches, carpets, as well as adults, who love these three, little
Munchkins found themselves covered in ... Whoops!  TMI, right?
Anyway, it didn't take long before common sense saw fit to
Hand pots to Tony and Ray, who'd been the first to
Demonstrate obvious signs of physical distress ...
As to Ravi (who, needless to say, felt clingy each time
Her tummy rebelled from the invasion of this bug), we kept
The sand bucket, which she funnily places over her head, handy in
Hopes of saving ourselves from repeatedly ... Uh ...
Need I go on or are you getting the technicolored picture?
Fortunately, fate smiled in my direction in that my immune system
Staunchly staved off that bug from invading the state of my good health
However, I didn't have the time or inclination to pen a new post ...
On the other hand, my power of intuition did manage to slip
A few new insights into Post 1373 57's, and since my intuitive voice feels
Every bit as as eager to speak to your conscious awareness as it proved
Eager to bend my ear, those insights await your decision to spend
Several moments of your valuable time reviewing that post  ... or not
As for me, a day filled with healthy family fun awaits ... And
In addition to feeling thankful for such a quick turnaround, I also
Give thanks for every intuitive train of thought that has coached
My conscious mind to choose to spend the time that's required to train
My brain's defense system to relax in the midst of chaos, freeing
My think tank to naturally expand my sights to summon
My intuitive powers whenever my conscious awareness finds itself
In need of positively focused trains of thought, which charm my spirit into
Dancing as openly, joyfully and naturally as is true, right now
In other words, no more stressing subconsciously, unconsciously, thus
Wasting valuable time waiting, anxiously, for the other shoe to
Drop on the head of a sleeping dog for me!  No siree!
When anxiety strikes too high to match the situation at hand
You'll watch me self soothe till a mindful sense of relaxation coaxes
Intuition to whisper the name of the sleeping dog into my ear, and once named
You'll watch the self confident leader, whom I've groomed myself to be
Tame that little critter to switch tracks from barking to eating out of my hand