609 I CHANGED MY MIND ... Aaachooo!

I changed my mind
I don't know why my mind changed
I just know that it did, because ...
I don't feel like going back to review posts already written
I feel like leaping forward into a new story, instead ... and just as
I don't know what to make of this change ...
I don't know why I still don't feel up to snuff, however ...
I do believe in making the best of whatever is taking place, so
I will end for today by telling you this ...
I am planning to write a new story when next we meet ...
Aaachooo!

608. WISHING YOU A HAPPY HEALTHY ... AAACHOOO!

After sending email wishing everyone happiness and  healthiness
I sent it to myself in hopes of relieving flu-ish-ness with ...
A high spirited ...
Hi ho Silver, away!
As that did not do the trick ...
Hopefully, I'll feel less flu-ish, more refreshed after a nap ...
Happy New Year, one and all!

607 FLU STICKS LIKE GLUE

Makes me crazy to look at stats, showing how many of you are following my posts, when my brain, foggy with flu, can't rouse the energy necessary to deliver the goods ...

Lightheadedness suggests energy turning in, fighting off this bug ... hopefully, tomorrow will prove better than today in every way ...

On the upside, here's a happy (new year) piece of news to share far and wide ... One of my favorite tv shows is coming back on ...

Necessary Roughness, renewed for season three, will air on USA, Wed. Jan. 23rd :)
Ah ...that feels better ... ending today's post on such a positive note ... :)

606 SURPRISE!

So what did today surprise me with?
The flu!
And as my mind is begging for quiet
All I can say, concerning emotional reactions, is ...
Phooey on that!

605 MY NEW PLAN

Sooo ... instinct suggests I do this, next ...
Just as I reviewed Bully For Me
I'll review First Kiss
Then Twinkle Twinkle
And perhaps, after reviewing and reabsorbing these first three stories, all of which flowed forth quite naturally out of my mind, my block against writing a high school story may somehow unjam.  In fact, perhaps while recapping these earliest stages of my life, my thought processor will muster the courage to unearth an emotional reaction to some fearsome experience, which remains buried so deeply within my subconscious as to cause the story-telling portion of my mind to be rendered as voiceless, today, as when my voice had choked in my throat when I was a teen, terrified of venturing onto center stage where guys ... who only wanted one thing ... ran the show ... In fact, I can't help but hope that while backtracking from today's mental block toward the beginning of my life, when my voice rang out as true to me as truth can be, insight may light up a dark spot inside my mind, where subconscious fear may be causing high school stories to choke ... and as hunting down insight into submissive fear is a feat requiring courage, patience and moral support ... please wish me good luck as my spirit steels my mind to best this test by stepping up to the plate and zeroing in on the ball ... which instinct suggests may fly in from out of the blue at such a high velocity that I'll either slam it out of the park or strik... Uh ...on second thought, let's set our concentration on that positive thought of hitting a homer and leave it at that ... because if the truth be told, and it's the truth we're after, I have no more clue than you as to what surprise may fly out of my mind when next we meet ...
Your friend,
:) Annie

604 (593) NEVER SAY NEVER ... :)

A mind set is a mind set is a mind set
Until
Something utterly unexpected flies in from out of the blue
And when that something flies in and happens to YOU
Your thought process begins to expand in order to absorb
That which was not to be fathomed until ...
This extraordinary (yet classic) experience
Took you by surprise enough to shake off
Every layer of an old mind set that seemed to make sense, yesterday
But makes no sense at all, today

(Upon looking back, I saw that posts 510 and 593 had never been published so I decided ... better late than never :)

603 (510) POSITIVE ATTITUDES PRECEDE GROWTH ALL AROUND

Choices tend to change, over time.
When considering choice, there's want and need
In addition to want and need
There's bound, decide and not ... let me explain ...

Choices we want to make are yearned for but depend upon readiness
Choices we need to make are necessary for survival.
Choices we feel bound to make are dictated by the needs of others
Choices we consciously decide not to make are determined by fear of loss

It's true that
When considering
Choices we want to make but decide not to make
A strong line of self control may be required

During times of personal growth, choices narrow or expand.
Each time instinct readies a person to move through a growth spurt
Old patterns, which had once felt comfortable, natural and healthy
Process through stages of change, which may prove uncomfortable, all around

During and after each growth spurt, we may think not to know each other, as before
This is one reason why change can be hard to accept, all around
Each time instinct propels me to work through a growth spurt
I foes on developing healthy thought patterns, which expand my comfort zones

If my choices, comfort zones and trains of thought change
While your mind sets and comfort zones remain the same
Then choices, which allow me to grow free of yesterday's constraints
May feel stressful or threatening to you.

As it's common
For new schools of thought
To ruffle the status quo
Changing mind sets may cause family ties to unravel

Since its always darkest before the dawn
My sense of hope is encouraged by this fact:
A new day dawns
Every day

So if you feel less than pleased with my choices
And if I feel displeased with your reactions
Then guess what else changes ... but not for the better?
The positive way we had once viewed each other

If two people want to create new bonds of friendship
Both need to understand why their old comfort zone disappeared
Once two people consider need for positive readjustment on both sides
Negatively focused views switch toward optimism

As optimistic attitudes
Shape up
On both sides
Positive change
Ensues for all concerned

(Neglected to publish post 510, as well ... oops! :)