As recent posts have referenced serenity, repeatedly, rather than
Taxing your patience by asking you to back track, again
I've copied intuitive revisions to yesterday's post, below, and
In addition to revisions dancing through my head, overnight
Guess what else twirled right out of the depths of my mind once
The conscious portion of my processor awakened, feeling
Refreshed and re-energized, this morning?
The answer to the question left swinging between us at
The very end of post 1468BBBBBB ... and now, without
Further ado, let's see how naturally my revisions and
'Your' question's answer came to blend ever so smoothly together:
Each time my intuition empowers its little voice to speak up and
Be heard, my conscious awareness tunes into my need to
Embrace personal growth spurts throughout every stage of life, and
In this way do I caution myself to remember that
Mind expansion depends upon listening up and taking note of
Deeper truth literally speaking clearly to me from within my soul
And in this manner do I call upon my line of control to muster
The inner calm necessary to create change for the better by
Focusing inward until an attitude is sighted, which is currently
In need of switching tracks from close-minded, defensive negativity toward
Freely embracing (thus re-strengthening) my preferred position of
Open-minded, objective positivity in hopes of gaining (rather than losing) ground as
As I continue to work toward achieving a heartfelt goal that continues to feel
Too slippery to be safely held within my grasp, and
Each time today's train of thought permeates the conscious portion
Of my mind, I'm reminded of that industrious ant, instinctively making
Good use of his innate ability to move the proverbial rubber tree plant, one
Tiny step forward after another—then again, I'm not an ant—
I'm a person, who can't help but wish for a perfect world in which
All people would grow toward freely embracing this reality:
Achieving success doth not depend upon push and shove
Ultimately, success depends upon fully embracing
A lasting awareness of need to train one's mind to
Gain and maintain a soulful (serene) balance between
Self respect and mutual respect regarding differing needs, and
Accomplishing this on-going feat of gaining mental strength
Depends upon S teeping one's conscious mind with patience by
Choosing to embrace mankind (oneself included) flaws and all with
A growing sense of heartfelt tranquility, most especially when
Success proves to be such a long range goal as to feel just beyond
Reach so as to suggest need for an attitude adjustment from
Fielding frustration toward seeking insight concerning how best to
Divide any long range goal into a series of short range goals, each of which
May be achieved with a greater sense of celebration than
Had been possible when my mental appetite had unconsciously focused on
Biting off far more than my processor could digest, all at once —Ohhmmm—
Thursday, July 20, 2017
Tuesday, July 18, 2017
1468BBBBBB EACH ADULT IS ACCOUNTABLE FOR BUILDING A LIFE RAFT
Today, while reviewing my reply to my friend's question—How are you?—a stream of insights flowed forth so naturally from within my intuitive well spring of deeper truth as to have strengthened the content of post 1468BBBBB.
When, as of late, my intuition feels empowered to speak up and be heard, my conscious awareness (tuning into my need for personal growth throughout every stage of life) reminds me that mind expansion depends upon listening up and taking note of deeper truth literally speaking clearly from within my soul. And thus do I manage to muster the patience necessary to create change for the better, one step at a time, by calmly steering my focus inward until an attitude is sighted, which is currently in need of switching tracks from close-minded, defensive negativity in favor of freely embracing (re-strengthening) my preferred position of open-minded, objective positivity, which keeps my intelligence focused ever more consistently upon gaining (rather than losing) ground by energizing every interactive function of my brain to work as a well organized whole toward achieving a heartfelt goal that still feels too slippery to consider safely within my grasp ... and if you feel inclined to ask: How do you muster the patience to maintain a calming sense of emotional composure if a heartfelt goal remains just beyond reach for years? I'd reply ... please tune in tomorrow when my intuitive voice has had time to sleep on a question, which seems as cerebral as that ... Ohhmmm
When, as of late, my intuition feels empowered to speak up and be heard, my conscious awareness (tuning into my need for personal growth throughout every stage of life) reminds me that mind expansion depends upon listening up and taking note of deeper truth literally speaking clearly from within my soul. And thus do I manage to muster the patience necessary to create change for the better, one step at a time, by calmly steering my focus inward until an attitude is sighted, which is currently in need of switching tracks from close-minded, defensive negativity in favor of freely embracing (re-strengthening) my preferred position of open-minded, objective positivity, which keeps my intelligence focused ever more consistently upon gaining (rather than losing) ground by energizing every interactive function of my brain to work as a well organized whole toward achieving a heartfelt goal that still feels too slippery to consider safely within my grasp ... and if you feel inclined to ask: How do you muster the patience to maintain a calming sense of emotional composure if a heartfelt goal remains just beyond reach for years? I'd reply ... please tune in tomorrow when my intuitive voice has had time to sleep on a question, which seems as cerebral as that ... Ohhmmm
Monday, July 17, 2017
1468BBBBB MORE THAN SHE'D BARGAINED FOR ...
Today, after sending a happy birthday email to a dear friend whom I've not seen for quite some time, she replied: Thank you! How are you? To which I replied:
I'm well and actually, tranquil (at least for now) 😊 🌈
Rather than seeing myself as a life raft, transporting all of my loved ones safely through every set of rapids until we reach a distant shore, I envision my processor as a supportive compass, voicing compassionate words of comfort in hopes of providing a calming effect, which minimizes muscular tension that deprives our blood vessels of oxygen necessary to re-energize a person's clear-headed intelligence to remain fully focused upon achieving heartfelt goals ever more successfully throughout each next stage of life. And if you wonder what catalyzed this change for the better in my attitude (regarding my newly relaxed self image), I'd say: Thank goodness I choose to engage in sessions of EMDR therapy, which channel my thought processor toward identifying subconscious attitudes that proved in need of intuitive re-consideration ever since I lost sight of my true path at the vulnerable age of three when childhood's rapids swept my self image toward the fork in the river where my survival instinct felt so confused as to direct my defense system to construct a life raft that would surely transport all of my deeply confounded, grieving loved ones toward an undisclosed, distant shore where inner peace awaits us all.
Over most of my life, I had no conscious clue that my subconscious fear of seeing myself as unworthy of love was constantly repairing this life raft, which could not possibly secure the emotional safety of every person (beginning with my birth family) whenever fate flung another turbulent set of mind-darkening rapids across our path, releasing our defense systems to sweep our confounded processors' internal compasses off course, again and again, and that was the crux of the story of my life until EMDR therapy encouraged me to see that Mother Nature charges each person, grown to adulthood, with being accountable for securing an internal compass, which, pointing to true north, guides the existential nature of our think tanks toward constructing a personal life raft that seeks calm waters in which to ponder ever more deeply into the disruptive nature of one's own despairing emotional turbulence, which separates us from realizing heartfelt goals, and having come to see that each adult is charged with setting one's sights upon paddling toward that distant shoreline where inner peace awaits to welcome every wearied time traveler, who seeks to grow self aware, home—each at his or her own pace—I (having taken precautions to burn no bridges while my intuitive powers coach the wounded portion of my self esteem to heal itself of childhood's festering wounds) feel eager to warmly embrace every wounded warrior, whose self awareness sends out signals of readiness to tune into intuitive need to work at self healing as has clearly as has been true of me over these past several years.
Over most of my life, I had no conscious clue that my subconscious fear of seeing myself as unworthy of love was constantly repairing this life raft, which could not possibly secure the emotional safety of every person (beginning with my birth family) whenever fate flung another turbulent set of mind-darkening rapids across our path, releasing our defense systems to sweep our confounded processors' internal compasses off course, again and again, and that was the crux of the story of my life until EMDR therapy encouraged me to see that Mother Nature charges each person, grown to adulthood, with being accountable for securing an internal compass, which, pointing to true north, guides the existential nature of our think tanks toward constructing a personal life raft that seeks calm waters in which to ponder ever more deeply into the disruptive nature of one's own despairing emotional turbulence, which separates us from realizing heartfelt goals, and having come to see that each adult is charged with setting one's sights upon paddling toward that distant shoreline where inner peace awaits to welcome every wearied time traveler, who seeks to grow self aware, home—each at his or her own pace—I (having taken precautions to burn no bridges while my intuitive powers coach the wounded portion of my self esteem to heal itself of childhood's festering wounds) feel eager to warmly embrace every wounded warrior, whose self awareness sends out signals of readiness to tune into intuitive need to work at self healing as has clearly as has been true of me over these past several years.
And that's your loquacious friend's way of responding:
"I'm fine. How are you?"
LOL!
Annie
BTW: Discretion suggested that this particular friend, who just earned her PhD in psychology, would not be inclined to send out the men in white coats with a straight jacket, size 4 petite, in hopes of saving me from roaming around, 24/7, ever more deeply into the growing expanse of my think tank🌞
Sunday, July 16, 2017
1468BBBB SERENITY SOOTHES AS NATURALLY AS A BALM
A world of difference exists between lugging forward
Subconscious guilt (which weighed undeservedly so heavily on
My spirit as to have aroused My Fixer to feel accountable for repairing
That which proved beyond my control) vs consciously
Acknowledging those times when my intelligence has need to partner with
Creativity to conjure up a plan, which proves so simplistic as to offer
My spirit sound reason to smile (proactively) each time I choose to
Gift my loved ones (whose spirits are dragging with weariness from
Wrestling unsuccessfully against life's unresolved dilemmas) with reason to
Feel uplifted as we all partake in a cup full of smiles sweetened with
Comforting words as naturally soothing as a balm, and each time
We encourage each other to switch tracks from negatively focused
Attitudes toward co-creating change for the better
Hope, renewed, may linger longer than
Than the brief length of time that we'd spent together
As the simplicity of this plan entices fear-based frustration to
Relax, all around, the contagious nature of serenity reduces
Muscle tension, if not for the long haul, at least temporarily ...
And having spent these past four days at the bedside of
Will's brother (where we also commiserated tenderly with
His wearied, care-taking wife), tis time for us to
Board our flight, stow our carry-ons, sit back, buckle up and
Relax, having placed our faith in our pilot's expertise to
Fly this bird across the sky while thoughts of loved ones, who
Having chosen to retire in Santa Fe, had need to acknowledge this reality:
Though life lived within this laid back land of enchantment had
Offered both an enriching sense of heartfelt contentment over these past
Fifteen years, medical facilities prove inadequate when we, who
Feel startled upon staring advanced age in the eye, are in need of
Intensive medical care, and as reality has charged
Our loved ones' intelligence with effecting change for the better with haste
Tomorrow sees Will's 80 year old brother being transferred by
Private ambulance from this clean but dilapidated
Long term care facility in favor of taking up permanent residence with
His wife at his side within a gracious medical facility, situated in
One of Albuquerque's lovely southwestern mountain settings where
Those in need of attentive assisted, senior living dwell in
Close proximity to a staff of highly trained professionals, offering
An incapacitated husband and his exhausted wife a greater sense of
Inner peace than has been true since my brother-in-law's physical and
Cognetive decline began to grow ever more transparent, over these past
Two years, and though tranquil is not what I'd felt while hugging
Our loved ones good-bye, the fact that they are about to proactively create
A new normal for themselves within a compassionate community where
My brother in law will receive professional care, 24/7, is
Truly a comforting relief, most especially because his wife is scheduled to
Undergo total knee surgery, followed by a grueling course of
Physical therapy in less than two weeks time, and the fact that their move is
Imminent frees Will's mind and mine to return to our home in readiness to
Fly to the west coast, because upon answering my cell phone, today.
I listened to Barry express his dismay over the fact that
Seven year old Tony had broken both of his wrists ... Ohhhmmm
A world of difference often exists between happiness and serenity
And here's how EMDR therapy clarified that reality for me:
I do not necessarily feel happy while feeling
Soulfully saturated and thus serene in regards to the person
I continue to conscientiously choose to grow to be, and each time
I consciously relax The Fixer (minimizing reason for my anxiety to
Strike when fate offers my loved ones yet another turbulent ride through
The rapids) this change for the better concerning my attitude, which
Proves to be within my personal realm of control, serves to
Calm me enough to S oothe distress from escalating unnecessarily, all around
And if you ask me to specify which change for the better empowers
My presence to feel as naturally soothing as a balm, I'd reply:
Rather than envisioning myself as self appointed
Chief problem solver in charge of solution seeking, my newly
Relaxed self image tends to sprinkle a consciously readjusted
Positively focused personal presence of gentle repose throughout the room ...
Today, when my ear alerts my mind to respond to a loved one's
Distress signal of SOS, rather than subconsciously feeling
Anxiously responsible for ensuring everyone's safe-keeping, thus
Transforming my think tank into the life raft upon which
All feel need to cling for dear life, I see myself as
An intuitive human being, whose inner compass directs
My processor to offer compassionate, clear-headed support to
Those who, feeling confused and challenged while advancing
Through a near and present danger, keep their eyes, ears and
Intelligence trained upon reaching that which feels like (and
May prove to be) a distant shore, and in order to fully embrace
This attitude of tranquility before anxiety strikes, all I need do is
To switch tracks from yesteryear's mindset, which had
Charged my battery with feeling personally responsible for fueling
The life raft, transporting all of my loved ones through
Every next mind soaking, spiritually exhausting set of rapids
Toward feeling like a calmly supportive compass ... Ohhmmm
Subconscious guilt (which weighed undeservedly so heavily on
My spirit as to have aroused My Fixer to feel accountable for repairing
That which proved beyond my control) vs consciously
Acknowledging those times when my intelligence has need to partner with
Creativity to conjure up a plan, which proves so simplistic as to offer
My spirit sound reason to smile (proactively) each time I choose to
Gift my loved ones (whose spirits are dragging with weariness from
Wrestling unsuccessfully against life's unresolved dilemmas) with reason to
Feel uplifted as we all partake in a cup full of smiles sweetened with
Comforting words as naturally soothing as a balm, and each time
We encourage each other to switch tracks from negatively focused
Attitudes toward co-creating change for the better
Hope, renewed, may linger longer than
Than the brief length of time that we'd spent together
As the simplicity of this plan entices fear-based frustration to
Relax, all around, the contagious nature of serenity reduces
Muscle tension, if not for the long haul, at least temporarily ...
And having spent these past four days at the bedside of
Will's brother (where we also commiserated tenderly with
His wearied, care-taking wife), tis time for us to
Board our flight, stow our carry-ons, sit back, buckle up and
Relax, having placed our faith in our pilot's expertise to
Fly this bird across the sky while thoughts of loved ones, who
Having chosen to retire in Santa Fe, had need to acknowledge this reality:
Though life lived within this laid back land of enchantment had
Offered both an enriching sense of heartfelt contentment over these past
Fifteen years, medical facilities prove inadequate when we, who
Feel startled upon staring advanced age in the eye, are in need of
Intensive medical care, and as reality has charged
Our loved ones' intelligence with effecting change for the better with haste
Tomorrow sees Will's 80 year old brother being transferred by
Private ambulance from this clean but dilapidated
Long term care facility in favor of taking up permanent residence with
His wife at his side within a gracious medical facility, situated in
One of Albuquerque's lovely southwestern mountain settings where
Those in need of attentive assisted, senior living dwell in
Close proximity to a staff of highly trained professionals, offering
An incapacitated husband and his exhausted wife a greater sense of
Inner peace than has been true since my brother-in-law's physical and
Cognetive decline began to grow ever more transparent, over these past
Two years, and though tranquil is not what I'd felt while hugging
Our loved ones good-bye, the fact that they are about to proactively create
A new normal for themselves within a compassionate community where
My brother in law will receive professional care, 24/7, is
Truly a comforting relief, most especially because his wife is scheduled to
Undergo total knee surgery, followed by a grueling course of
Physical therapy in less than two weeks time, and the fact that their move is
Imminent frees Will's mind and mine to return to our home in readiness to
Fly to the west coast, because upon answering my cell phone, today.
I listened to Barry express his dismay over the fact that
Seven year old Tony had broken both of his wrists ... Ohhhmmm
A world of difference often exists between happiness and serenity
And here's how EMDR therapy clarified that reality for me:
I do not necessarily feel happy while feeling
Soulfully saturated and thus serene in regards to the person
I continue to conscientiously choose to grow to be, and each time
I consciously relax The Fixer (minimizing reason for my anxiety to
Strike when fate offers my loved ones yet another turbulent ride through
The rapids) this change for the better concerning my attitude, which
Proves to be within my personal realm of control, serves to
Calm me enough to S oothe distress from escalating unnecessarily, all around
And if you ask me to specify which change for the better empowers
My presence to feel as naturally soothing as a balm, I'd reply:
Rather than envisioning myself as self appointed
Chief problem solver in charge of solution seeking, my newly
Relaxed self image tends to sprinkle a consciously readjusted
Positively focused personal presence of gentle repose throughout the room ...
Today, when my ear alerts my mind to respond to a loved one's
Distress signal of SOS, rather than subconsciously feeling
Anxiously responsible for ensuring everyone's safe-keeping, thus
Transforming my think tank into the life raft upon which
All feel need to cling for dear life, I see myself as
An intuitive human being, whose inner compass directs
My processor to offer compassionate, clear-headed support to
Those who, feeling confused and challenged while advancing
Through a near and present danger, keep their eyes, ears and
Intelligence trained upon reaching that which feels like (and
May prove to be) a distant shore, and in order to fully embrace
This attitude of tranquility before anxiety strikes, all I need do is
To switch tracks from yesteryear's mindset, which had
Charged my battery with feeling personally responsible for fueling
The life raft, transporting all of my loved ones through
Every next mind soaking, spiritually exhausting set of rapids
Toward feeling like a calmly supportive compass ... Ohhmmm
Saturday, July 15, 2017
1468BBB ... WALKING THE WALK
Defining serenity as an attitude is one thing
Practicing what I preach with sincerity is another
Whereas talking the talk is easy peasy
It's now apparent that walking this walk with consistency is
No easier than retiring The Fixer, which
Makes me wonder if sustaining an attitude of
Serenity will naturally feel less challenging to
Maintain once The Fixer has actually, graciously retired ...
BTW, have I thought to mention whether
My wish to gift my brother-in-law's spirit with
Reason to drink from a cup full of smiles was granted?
With tongue in cheek, I plan to answer that question with another:
Upon choosing to scroll back to post 1468BB
Might your thought processor find newly added
Information as uplifting to your spirit as was true of mine?
Practicing what I preach with sincerity is another
Whereas talking the talk is easy peasy
It's now apparent that walking this walk with consistency is
No easier than retiring The Fixer, which
Makes me wonder if sustaining an attitude of
Serenity will naturally feel less challenging to
Maintain once The Fixer has actually, graciously retired ...
BTW, have I thought to mention whether
My wish to gift my brother-in-law's spirit with
Reason to drink from a cup full of smiles was granted?
With tongue in cheek, I plan to answer that question with another:
Upon choosing to scroll back to post 1468BB
Might your thought processor find newly added
Information as uplifting to your spirit as was true of mine?
Friday, July 14, 2017
1468BB YOU MIGHT WANT TO RETRACE YOUR STEPS ...
The name of the game
(If you, like me, enjoy catching insights in a jar)
Is once again
Two Steps Forward One Back
And here's why choosing to play this game
Today, nets good use of common sense:
A powerful string of insights, which
Brightened my spirit, this morning
Flew into post 1468B, over night, and
Since insights, like fireflies, are likely to
Lighten a mood, which left on its own might
Linger too long upon trains of thought that
Darken your view (and mine) of what
The immediate future (which cannot be foretold) may
(Or may not) hold in store for you (or for me), now that
I've clearly expressed today's stream of consciousness
Tis time for me to exit stage left so as to free
Your think tank to ponder upon
This next insight-driven train of thought on your own:
If attitudes are to be defined as choices (which tend to
Change for better or worse) then when the going gets
Rough instead of shopping on line I'll do my best to
Switch tracks from dark to bright by reminding
My think tank to resuscitate serenity as
My spirit's primary attitude of choice ...
How bout you?
PS
If today's line of reasoning makes sense but you don't yet
Believe your think tank capable of choosing serenity over
Frustration then all you need do for right now is to
Proactively choose to retrace your steps so as to
Consider additional fireflies that swarmed brightly
Overnight, into Post 1468B ...
As for me, I'm about to call for an Uber in hopes of
Heartfully delivering a full cup of smiles to Will's brother, who
Has taken up residence (hopefully temporarily) in
An extended care facility, which has seen better days
(BTW ... please make note of the fact that
Not once have I intimated that serenity is easily maintained)
Oh! One more thing ... you know what I said about
Switching tracks from shopping when the going gets rough?
Well, what's a girl to do when, upon leaving the care facility and
Choosing to ease my sadness concerning my brother-in-law's
Decline (which remains undiagnosed), I lie down with
My iPad only to find that Nordstrom has sent
A friendly email enticing my mind's eye to click onto
Their website just to browse through their semi annual sale?
I mean can you blame me if what I saw was so tempting as to
Suggest that Nordstrom's is not making my choice to
Switch tracks from 'shopping my cares away', easy peasy?
Seriously ... if you saw how reasonably priced that
Really cute pair of Cole Hann ballet flats (which
I've been coveting in exactly that shade of pewter) is, right now
I'm sure you'd agree that taking one leap of faith at a time in hopes of
Initiating change for the better by conscientiously maintaining
An attitude of serenity is more than enough for
My think tank to tackle, most especially, today, and
With that thought in mind, I'll reset my focus toward
Holding on to serenity while freeing my fingers to
Run all over my iPad's keyboard, and by golly
Guess what's happened since I chose to treat myself to
Those yummy shoes? My spirit's sadness is processing toward
Rebalancing by way of consciously choosing to
Sprinkle a bit of levity over circumstances so sad as to prove
Way beyond my control ... Ohmmm
As to offering Will's brother a cup brimming over with smiles?
Well, smiles were won all around while we enjoyed a series of
Videos, showcasung Ravi's two year old antics, and
The one that enticed my brother-in-law's smile to expand from
Tepid to spreading from ear to ear was the video of
Ravi, riding on her Papa Pony's back, exclaiming:
Giddy up, Papa! Run! Run!
Every time I watch that video of Will on all fours, whinnying, much
To Ravi's delight, I can't help but LOL, myself! (In addition to
Family videos. we enjoyed photos (such as Ray in his cap and
Gown, graduating from kindergarten :)
Another smile was won while I handed my car-loving brother-in-law
Two of his favorite magazines: Car and Driver being one, and
As for the other ... I couldn't name that publication if
My life depended on it, but it doesn't, so that's another good thing
And finally, Will brought donuts (Dunkin, of course), and as
He and his brother each wolfed down at least two, smiles
Were exchanged, yet again ... so while spending time with
My brother-in-law of fifty-one years, my attitude of
Inner serenity was maintained ... then, upon settling myself on
My bed, my attitude, which was originally focused upon
Not shopping till I dropped ... changed ... Ohmmm ...
(If you, like me, enjoy catching insights in a jar)
Is once again
Two Steps Forward One Back
And here's why choosing to play this game
Today, nets good use of common sense:
A powerful string of insights, which
Brightened my spirit, this morning
Flew into post 1468B, over night, and
Since insights, like fireflies, are likely to
Lighten a mood, which left on its own might
Linger too long upon trains of thought that
Darken your view (and mine) of what
The immediate future (which cannot be foretold) may
(Or may not) hold in store for you (or for me), now that
I've clearly expressed today's stream of consciousness
Tis time for me to exit stage left so as to free
Your think tank to ponder upon
This next insight-driven train of thought on your own:
If attitudes are to be defined as choices (which tend to
Change for better or worse) then when the going gets
Rough instead of shopping on line I'll do my best to
Switch tracks from dark to bright by reminding
My think tank to resuscitate serenity as
My spirit's primary attitude of choice ...
How bout you?
PS
If today's line of reasoning makes sense but you don't yet
Believe your think tank capable of choosing serenity over
Frustration then all you need do for right now is to
Proactively choose to retrace your steps so as to
Consider additional fireflies that swarmed brightly
Overnight, into Post 1468B ...
As for me, I'm about to call for an Uber in hopes of
Heartfully delivering a full cup of smiles to Will's brother, who
Has taken up residence (hopefully temporarily) in
An extended care facility, which has seen better days
(BTW ... please make note of the fact that
Not once have I intimated that serenity is easily maintained)
Oh! One more thing ... you know what I said about
Switching tracks from shopping when the going gets rough?
Well, what's a girl to do when, upon leaving the care facility and
Choosing to ease my sadness concerning my brother-in-law's
Decline (which remains undiagnosed), I lie down with
My iPad only to find that Nordstrom has sent
A friendly email enticing my mind's eye to click onto
Their website just to browse through their semi annual sale?
I mean can you blame me if what I saw was so tempting as to
Suggest that Nordstrom's is not making my choice to
Switch tracks from 'shopping my cares away', easy peasy?
Seriously ... if you saw how reasonably priced that
Really cute pair of Cole Hann ballet flats (which
I've been coveting in exactly that shade of pewter) is, right now
I'm sure you'd agree that taking one leap of faith at a time in hopes of
Initiating change for the better by conscientiously maintaining
An attitude of serenity is more than enough for
My think tank to tackle, most especially, today, and
With that thought in mind, I'll reset my focus toward
Holding on to serenity while freeing my fingers to
Run all over my iPad's keyboard, and by golly
Guess what's happened since I chose to treat myself to
Those yummy shoes? My spirit's sadness is processing toward
Rebalancing by way of consciously choosing to
Sprinkle a bit of levity over circumstances so sad as to prove
Way beyond my control ... Ohmmm
As to offering Will's brother a cup brimming over with smiles?
Well, smiles were won all around while we enjoyed a series of
Videos, showcasung Ravi's two year old antics, and
The one that enticed my brother-in-law's smile to expand from
Tepid to spreading from ear to ear was the video of
Ravi, riding on her Papa Pony's back, exclaiming:
Giddy up, Papa! Run! Run!
Every time I watch that video of Will on all fours, whinnying, much
To Ravi's delight, I can't help but LOL, myself! (In addition to
Family videos. we enjoyed photos (such as Ray in his cap and
Gown, graduating from kindergarten :)
Another smile was won while I handed my car-loving brother-in-law
Two of his favorite magazines: Car and Driver being one, and
As for the other ... I couldn't name that publication if
My life depended on it, but it doesn't, so that's another good thing
And finally, Will brought donuts (Dunkin, of course), and as
He and his brother each wolfed down at least two, smiles
Were exchanged, yet again ... so while spending time with
My brother-in-law of fifty-one years, my attitude of
Inner serenity was maintained ... then, upon settling myself on
My bed, my attitude, which was originally focused upon
Not shopping till I dropped ... changed ... Ohmmm ...
Thursday, July 13, 2017
1468B LIBERATING THE FIXER TAKES MORE TIME THAN I'D ORIGINALLY SURMISED
Each time the conscious portion of my brain feels constipated with a train of thought that's sruggling to tunnel its way out of subconscious storage, a sensation of heaviness along my forehead heightens my awareness of my intuitive powers hunkering down until the spotlight of insight highlights a fear, which, ever since childhood, has blocked my sense of clarity from identifying an inner conflict that will continue to thwart my determination to achieve a heartfelt goal as long as my conscious awareness cannot name a self defeating attitude that disables my intelligence from meeting with success.
Example?
I'm still working to change my subconscious attitude, which has habitually held my think tank personally accountable for maintaining the safekeeping of everyone I love, suggesting my need to calm my frustration whenever an unresolved conflict, which proves beyond my control, arises anew. In short, though I may not be able to resolve a conflict that proves beyond my control, I can work to modify my emotional reactiveness so as not toncatalyze anxiety to strike so high as to alert my survival instinct to pump an overproduction of adrenaline into my bloodstream, which in turn stimulates my overtaxed heart muscle to send out SOS signals of painfully stressed duress.
Each time I answer the phone to find that a loved one is experiencing serious symptoms of advancing age, I remind my connection to objectivity to maintain control over the fact that my reaction is not indicative of my need to tame preworry. Two cousins, who had been dear friends, both several years younger than me, died during this past year. And thus, while listening to additional loved ones express how their bodies are presently (though not prematurely) being ravaged by advancing age, do I remind myself to feel grateful that, thus far, Will and I are maintaining good health and enjoying our lives ... I mean if my dad enjoyed good health much more often than not for 87 years and my mom enjoyed good health, much more often than not, for 100 years, then I'll train my focus to concentrate on my good fortune to have my parents' genes, thus increasing my chances of enjoying the same hearty longevity as did they. Will's mom enjoyed good health until her mid eighties, and his beloved dad's early demise in 1958 left his family struggling with grief over the fact that an antidote to parrot's fever had not yet been discovered, if succumbing to parrot's fever was a rarity, back then, it's pretty much unheard of today ... and with these thoughts running through my head, pre worry over Will's demise of mine is shifted from the front burner of my mind to pilot light status, where my concerns rightfully belong. And on that upbeat note, I've readied my spirit to enjoy another healthy, sunny day, hot as it may be!
Example?
I'm still working to change my subconscious attitude, which has habitually held my think tank personally accountable for maintaining the safekeeping of everyone I love, suggesting my need to calm my frustration whenever an unresolved conflict, which proves beyond my control, arises anew. In short, though I may not be able to resolve a conflict that proves beyond my control, I can work to modify my emotional reactiveness so as not toncatalyze anxiety to strike so high as to alert my survival instinct to pump an overproduction of adrenaline into my bloodstream, which in turn stimulates my overtaxed heart muscle to send out SOS signals of painfully stressed duress.
Each time I answer the phone to find that a loved one is experiencing serious symptoms of advancing age, I remind my connection to objectivity to maintain control over the fact that my reaction is not indicative of my need to tame preworry. Two cousins, who had been dear friends, both several years younger than me, died during this past year. And thus, while listening to additional loved ones express how their bodies are presently (though not prematurely) being ravaged by advancing age, do I remind myself to feel grateful that, thus far, Will and I are maintaining good health and enjoying our lives ... I mean if my dad enjoyed good health much more often than not for 87 years and my mom enjoyed good health, much more often than not, for 100 years, then I'll train my focus to concentrate on my good fortune to have my parents' genes, thus increasing my chances of enjoying the same hearty longevity as did they. Will's mom enjoyed good health until her mid eighties, and his beloved dad's early demise in 1958 left his family struggling with grief over the fact that an antidote to parrot's fever had not yet been discovered, if succumbing to parrot's fever was a rarity, back then, it's pretty much unheard of today ... and with these thoughts running through my head, pre worry over Will's demise of mine is shifted from the front burner of my mind to pilot light status, where my concerns rightfully belong. And on that upbeat note, I've readied my spirit to enjoy another healthy, sunny day, hot as it may be!
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