More about choosing to create, practice, and call forth my self disciplined sense of calm during harrowing moments:
Having taught families to consider consequences born of our attitudes, words and actions, over these past 44 years, I chose to remain calm throughout this week’s on-going ordeal, thinking that with my platelets as low as 6000, any spike in anxiety might stimulate an over production of adrenalin, causing blood to race round my body, perhaps initiating internal hemorrhaging if my blood had thinned to the point of seeping through my vessels, and since I’d surely hoped not to react so as to make this scary deficit of platelets more life threatening than it had proved to be following my last chemo treatment, hindsight suggests that my defense system kicked in proactively so as to repress anxiety behind my well practiced, emotional line of control.. and thus is it likely that, along with the infusion of platelets received at Mayo on Wed., this same L of C that I’d chosen to invent, model and teach with success to calm each of my young sons (as well as to calm thousands of families enrolled in my classes, over these past 4O years) may have helped to save my life by maintaining my calm during this week’s storm.
🙋🏻♀️Annie
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