In retrospect, I wonder if you can surmise which of my impassioned desires
Proved
most delusional due to being beyond my control:
Was it my unwavering belief that The Fixer portion of my brain was
Empowered with the inner strengths and communication skills necessary to
Resolve conflicts amongst members of my extended family, whose
Defensive attitudes have separated loved ones ur into warring camps for
Many years, or was it my fervent belief that The Fixer portion of my brain
Was empowered to pen posts, which proved so laden with insight (concerning
Both sides of human nature) as to inspire deep thinkers throughout the world to
Embrace a grassroots movement, whereby these strings of insight (concerning
Negatively focused attitudes that have separated nations into warring camps for
Eons) would grow so widespread as to inspire individuals, world-wide, to
Work together, co-creating an harmonic state of conflict resolution, which, like
Soft butter on bread, would spread the spirit of positively focused
Peaceful co-existence around the
globe for
THE FIRST TIME EVER?(Deep sigh)
Having offered my think tank sufficient down time to rest, over these last few
Weeks, time spent in
objective reflection, suggests that
both delusions
(Concerning the
limited scope of my Fixer's ability to inspire
A
positively focused spirit of conflict resolution to be
absorbed around
The globe) prove
equally matched, causing me to ask:
Where does today's mindful awareness redirect
my rebalanced
And yet still
positively focused sense of reality to land, next?
Well, first of all, let's take a moment to contemplate the heavy burden of
Herculean pressure that I've recently relieved my subconscious from
Carrying forward—I mean, what has been gained by carrying this
Self-imposed, impassioned mission around like a ton of bricks inside
My head while penning strings of inter-related insights into
Post after post, pretty much on a daily basis (and to what avail), over
These past five years? Seriously—members of my extended family, hearts
Still burning with angst, remain firmly entrenched within separate camps, and
As to my having had a positive influence on spreading the spirit of
World peace on a global scope, well—all we need do is turn our sights
Toward the growing state of stormy turbulence that's exploded throughout
Our own nation to see the negative effects of smoke and mirrors, which have
Shrouded the torch, held high by The Statue of Liberty, so that she can barely
Cast her light upon our mutual need to enlighten the angry populous of
Our nation about this undeniable fact:
We, the people of these United States, who are charged with electing
Those who govern
over us, have lost sight of the unifying strengths
Inherent in the classic concept of 'All for one and one for all' and
As long as we vote for candidates who fail to honor that concept
Our nation will remain as divided into separate camps as
Continues to be true of certain members of my extended family
In post after post, I've clearly expressed my need to identify subconscious
Fears, which had spurred
my desire to
heal the
world of power-hungry
Attitudes that continue to cause wars to erupt, killing
Innocent folk and far too many traumatized children for
thousands of years
Thus, it's no wonder that my intuitive powers had need to kick in and inspire
My intelligence to seek professionally trained guidance, which has
Encouraged me to refocus my time, energy and attention toward
Tunneling ever more mindfully, subconsciously,
within until
My new sense of
peaceful wholeness felt emboldened to identify a host of
Inner conflicts, which had need to be resolved before I could
peaceably
Retire the compulsive nature of the
delusional portion of my brain's
Solution-Seeking Fixer in favor of resuscitating the whimsical Mary Poppins
Aspect of my decision-making process, which has needed to feel
Fully revitalized
before my intelligence can readily stimulate
My memory to release child-rearing, success stories from the past, which
Will be penned in a light-hearted fashion, as future posts
(Which are sure to be published) highlight my
conscious choice to
Actively practice the art of
self controlled discretion each time
My mouth opened to discipline my children in such a good-natured
Compassionate manner as to inspire a trio of independent, eager-to-learn
Young minds to absorb the wisdom inherent in insights, concerning
Cooperation, which my thought processor has, recently, begun to dispense
Every bit as enthusiastically to my grandchildren as my heart embraces
The antics of Tony, Ray and Ravi within Gramma Annie's
Smiling demonstrations of even-tempered, good humored patience, blended
With my spirit's natural, sunny sense of playfulness, while
I
choose to role-model the very same line of
self-control that will, hopefully
Over time, be absorbed as naturally by this generation of children as
Had been true in the past of Barry, Steven and David—and now that
My intuititive powers have laid out this simple plan for your consideration
Tis time for me to switch tracks from blogging to driving to
Pick up Ravi, who is eagerly awaiting her play date with
Gramma Annie (which, over these past two weeks, has been a daily
Mutually amusing, all day event, beginning when Celina and Steven began to
Fill endless boxes with accumulated belongings in readiness to move into
Their beautiful, spacious new home, which is where they now reside, amidst
Endless boxes in need of emptying of belongings in need of storing away ... and
As I sit here, musing over these last two and a half months of my hiatus from
Penning the most
serious of thoughts, I can see that my think tank has
Switched tracks from tunneling ever more deeply within toward feeling free to
Relate
delightful news, concerning my immediate family, which has inspired
My mind and spirit to make good use of my intelligence by putting any
Unresolved, subconscious turbulnce to rest in favor of freeing my smile to
Cavort merrily on the sunny side of the street since the first of the year—inclusive
Of the gala 50th Anniversary celebration, hosted lovingly by
Our adult offspring and attended by family and treasured friends, who
Having flown in from all over the country, added to our boundless sense of joy ...
PS
Even I am amazed when two-year old Ravi, declaring her frustration,
loudly
Actually calms down and listens attentively when Gramma Annie says
soothingly:
Please find your nice voice, Ravi, so I can help you ...
And if you ask how I know that my two year old grand daughter is truly
Hearing me
and following the gentle guidance of my role-modeling lead, I'd reply—
Ravi's body language
relaxes as she responds verbally by sweetly mimicking
My tone while
parroting my words: Nice 'boise'—and being an early talker
She goes on to calmly express what she needs help with ...
And once her
relaxed tone of voice returns, we share a good natured 'hi five' and
Proceed to
work through whatever
conflict may emerge— like wanting
A cookie, right before dinner is about to be served—and though conflict
Resolution is not quietly successful,
every time, I believe that the fact that
Ravi
mimics me more often than not
at the age of two, speaks volumes for
My belief that the precocious, sponge-like intelligence of this precious child is
In the
process of
absorbing her Gramma's positively focused, good natured
Attitude of cooperation, which proves necessary if differing mindsets are to
Minimize defensive power struggles by setting a high value upon
Peaceable conflict resolution as Ravi's future and mine continue to intertwine
In short, Ravi's mind is
beginning to embrace this fact of life:
Every mutually respectful friendship that stands the test of time depends upon
The
development of nice 'boises' and cooperative attitudes on both sides
