2015
Most especially on Thanksgiving when
We feel thankful for friends and family, whose
Presence in our lives offers our hearts
Reason to overflow with love and gratitude
I believe these riddles (as well as insights added at the end)
Prove worthy of your time and consideration, again ...
Most especially if your aim, concerning absorption, matches mine:
What's the difference between acting kind and feeling kind?
Whereas acting kind masks my true emotional reaction, which
Is naturally aroused when a certain person comes to mind
Feeling kind employs the attitude of
Generosity of spirit, which (easing my mind of
Tension based in emotional confusion) embraces
Another person's presence, flaws, idiosyncrasies and all
When I act one way while feeling another, what's missing?
Sincerity
When sincerity is missing, what is aroused?
Inner conflict
Once sincerity is mine what replaces inner conflict?
A sense of wholeness, based in clarity
Once clarity has cleared emotional confusion away
What change for the better is mine, at long last?
Peace of mind, based in deeper truth's self confident stance
What character trait strengthens my self confident stance?
Self respect, which is secured by employing my
Intelligence to work through mental confusion, based in
Emotional turmoil, until intuitive thought taps into
Insight, concerning both sides of my character, and
Each time my conscious mind tunnels ever more
Deeply into my past, my intent to penetrate through
Another layer of my wall of denial is successful
And with each success, my eyes open in surprise as
I come to see yet another
Negatively focused attitude (born of yet one more
Unprocessed childhood memory in which
I had deemed myself unworthy of receiving love)
Each time insight into forgotten details brighten
My state of mind, my intuitive need to
Adventure forth on this life-long quest to
Know myself as a whole has reason to muster
The courage and humility to
Meet with success as I choose to take each step forward after
Offering my tired mind a much needed rest
And though I fully enjoy time spent in peaceful repose
That's not to say that confusion, based in
Inner conflict, will not arise, offering my active mind
Reason to work toward deepening my sense of clarity, again
If you ask, Annie, why put yourself through this
Grueling mental activity, again and again, I'd reply:
Each time I've consciously chosen to work through
Emotional turmoil, based in unresolved inner conflict
My whole mind is freed to engage in a
Wrestling match with personal growth until such time as
My sense of logic confronts and pins another
Subconscious fear to the mat, and
Once this subconscious fear has been
Consciously identified and quelled, my intelligence
Rejoices in the fact that the self confident adult, whom
I choose to be, today, feels free to embrace
A heightened level of a emotional maturity, which gives rise to
Generosity of spirit, and each time my
Sense of wholeness absorbs another deeper truth
I can actually feel an unhealthy mindset shifting
Inside my head, and resultant of mindset expansion
A healthy change for the better, concerning
My attitude, empowers my self esteem to
Continue to forge an existential path, upon which
I walk forth with head held high, knowing
That, yet again, deeper truth serves as my ally
And in this way does each painful step toward
Personal growth, which I choose take while carving
My existential path, eventually sees meeting with
Success, Repeatedly, serving to deepen
My sense of sincerity, concerning
Generosity of spirit, which minimizes
The anxieties of those whose insecurities
Had felt uncertain of the emotional warmth or
Frostiness with which he or she might be
Received by me, and having experienced
The time-tested agility with which I've grown able to
Free my whole mind to feel sincerely forgiving and
Compassionate, through and through
I rejoice in the fact that my freely chosen attitude of
Heartfelt kindness conveys a sense of
Inner peacefulness which, over time, feels so
Contagious that emotional tension lessens, all around
And for this reason does my healthy sense of self confidence
Continue to carve a path whereby
Skillful leadership gathers followers by
Modeling traits, which (freed of emotional turmoil)
Serve to minimize anxiety, thus quietly negotiating
A sense of inner peace, which
People of all ages, throughout the world, yearn to achieve
Whereas acting kind feels so false as to invite
Inner conflict to invade everyone's peace of mind
My conscious choice to employ generosity of spirit holds forth
An olive branch, which, most often, is accepted with
Such a gracious sense of emotional relief as to suggest that
Sincerity, coupled with kindness, is empowered to
Cut tension, which would have, otherwise, sizzled through
The air, frying everyone's nerves, like a chicken, turning on a spit ...
As the strength of my sincerity deepens, so does
My sense of self respect, and since an emotionally mature
Self respecting adult does not harbor insecurity's need to
Sit others in the hot seat while the lash of my tongue
Grills them alive, you'll not see me employing
Passive aggressive fakery to poke at
Another person's vulnerabilities and flaws, regardless of
How often that person's tongue has chosen to lash out at mine
And since my quest to make gains at assuaging
Subconscious emotional pain by knowing myself ever more
Deeply from the inside out is sincere, you can
Feel assured that every post penned and edited, not once or
Twice but thrice, will continue to convey
The hard won, self respecting, peace of mind that
Is truly mine each time my intuitive need for
Personal growth has, yet again, experienced reason to
Feel irritated by inner conflict, which persists until
Such time as another hot spot of subconscious insecurity
Has been exposed, suggesting that satisfying
My soulful need for personal growth depends upon
Developing the self confidence that proves necessary to
Spur my conscious mind to engage with generosity of
Spirit, which suggests that each act of kindness, which
Is based in sincerity of thought, depends upon
Setting one's sights upon a quest, concerning self discovery that
Seeks to carve a path where, step by step
The mindful development of crystal clear clarity is
Ever more conscientiously and peaceably absorbed
As you may have already noticed (based upon
Your having played witness to my need to
Deepen the girth of my hard won
Self respecting, personal strengths) the sincerity
Of my focus, concerning working toward
Change for the better, all around, proves slow to anger
And here is why I think that's true:
I believe anger is based in fear of danger, which
Gives birth to emotional turmoil, and each time
I choose to turn subconscious turmoil inside out
My sense of logic grows ever more apt to smooth
A soothing balm over yet another mistaken
Self perception that caused me to feel
Angry with myself, thus weighing my
Spirit down with too many layers of
Undeserved guilt, and each time
Another layer of guilt is replaced with inner peace
My happiness quotient feels so
Spontaneously enlightened as to lighten
The burden that the child, within, had carried on
Her back when she was too young to
Process and comprehend the true innocence of
Her too-eager-to-please stance ...
And as it's impossible for any part of
My spirit to harbor anger, left simmering on
Yesteryear's back burner, while thoughts as bright as these
Fill my head with gratitude on this day when
Our hearts give thanks for blessings incurred over
This past year ... and as today marks Ravi's actual birthday
Imagine my smile beaming forth as bright as
A sunlit day while my healthy sense of wholeness
Wishes you and yours a happy and healthy
Thanksgiving, filled with love, laughter, and
Lots of delicious goodies to gobble up!
As for me, I have a feast to attend to before
My family arrives, eager to gobble everything down :)
And this year, in addition to hot apple and pumpkin pies
We'll place a festively decorated birthday cake
Before Ravi, whose sweet natured presence has
Blessed our lives with seeing the world, anew, through
The eyes of our precious child's fully animated
High spirited delight ...
Annie
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