*1214 PAUSE HIGH SCHOOL FRESHMAN YEAR Part 1

2014
Whew!
Wednesday's thoughts did not flow out of my mind, naturally.  Though intuition 'knew' what I wanted to say, my conscious mind could not express intuitive thought until my think tank figured out how to describe complex emotional reactions in words that made sense.  As the emergence of each insight, which tumbled out of my mind, proved so complex as to have been written in a jumbled fashion, I'd failed to notice my garbled word choices until that which proved in need of restructuring became obvious during each editing process, which took more than two days to repair.  The difficulty I had writing that post illustrates how deeply intuition had to reach into my core to stop subconscious fear, which kept filtering into my think tank, from discombobulating the organization of insights, which felt need to tumble forth, as fresh and hot as popcorn, popping out of my mind.

As it's taken two days to simplify my first, second and third attempts to describe a mind shift while a
mind shift has actually been restructuring itself within my brain and as my computer whiz is due to arrive, momentarily, to entice my new computer to open old files, I'll leave you to review my determined efforts to repair Wednesday's post—or not.  (Holy smokes!  I just reviewed that post, for the umpteenth time, and much to my surprise, that train of thought is still in need of work!)

Upon awakening, this morning, I had an insight into brain chemistry, which may prove helpful if you decide to revisit Wednesday's post, later today, after I've tightened the editing process, again.

As for now, here's the insight:  Just as with chemistry learned in high school, changes in brain chemistry must take place from within.  Since our mindsets are influenced by brain chemistry, which solidifies positive or negative emotional reactions, I've accepted this fact:  No amount of external prodding can change attitudes, which each of us learned to adopt, early in life, concerning the way we feel about this choice or that choice.  In short, no amount of external prodding can create a lasting shift in another person's internal mind-set.  Knowing that as true, I've been offering you a bird's eye view of the step-by-step process that proves necessary before a string of interrelated insights is empowered to stimulate an intuitive shift in attitude inside my mind, and that shift in attitude does not feel complete, until I experience—epiphany.  Once epiphany, concerning deeper truth is mine, a mindset, which had once felt impossible to change, restructures itself in undeniably doable ways.

Over the past couple of weeks, something about my precious granddaughter's birth caused my mind to shift into PTSD.  The top half of my head actually felt so strangely disorganized that I'd believed PTSD was trying to usurp control over my think tank, day after day.  Then intuition released a series of insights that inspired this epiphany:  My old mindset was actually in the process of shifting away from PTSD in that my brain was actively disassociating from fear of my baby sister's death toward embracing a healthy well-balanced outlook, insuring that my delight in light of Ravi's birth is not darkened in any way by subconsciously associating this precious child with the tragic loss of Janet—and thus has the intuitive portion of my brain been working, on its own, to free my think tank of a negatively focused mindset, which had proved to be associated with yesteryear's unprocessed, subconscious fear!

While my think tank has proved busy, undergoing this restructuring process, my sense of disorientation felt like an episode of PTSD was about to overwhelm me until a swarm of insights consolidated into epiphany, which enlightened my conscious awareness to this deeper truth:  My brain chemistry was actively moving through steps of healing itself—intuitively—from PTSD!

Good gracious!  How miraculous is that!

Though your decisions belong to no one but you, here is why I sincerely hope you'll freely choose to review the newest revision that I've just completed, concerning my need to restructure Wednesday's post, yet again:  Deeper truth suggests that each time we work to reduce the combustible nature of emotional confusion, we purify the 'element' of clarity, which proves paramount to achieving peace of mind.
Your friend,
Annie