Sunday, August 9, 2020

LET’S NOT DO THIS AGAIN

Penned a couple of days ago—
Hopefully. Today will be a bit easier than yesterday—this nerve pain is like a vice tightened all the way around around my chest.  Hard to move anything above my waist including arms without feeling stabbed, and my swollen legs and feet feel like pillars attached to bricks, other than that, no big deal❤️πŸ™‹πŸ»‍♀️
This recovery continues to be the most challenging physical experience I’ve had to face—ever!
(Any chance of September’s showing up early?  Like, tomorrow?)

Saturday, August 8, 2020

HERCULES SAMSON ROCKY AND ME

Lately, family and friends have dubbed me Wonder Woman, so I’m in the market for long dark hair, which I’d had but misplaced along this Rocky road; hey wait—on second thought, if Rocky entered the ring without long dark hair and, having felt knocked down for the counts, won the battle, round by round, before heading for home all stitched up (wearIng the belt of A Champ), then I, too, can complete a Herculean feat, which, during biblical times, had been attributed only to muscle bound guys, you know, like—Samson—

As joking pretty much tells me everything I need to know while my recovery begins to advance slowly, yet surely and smoothly forward, I‘ll pause for today with—
Stay safe
Mask up
Be well
Let’s unite so as to
Heal our nation
With the truth
Vote blue
Repeat
PS
Let’s leave
Wonder Woman to
Linda Carter
I’ll be happy with
Healthy Heidi
❤️🦸🏻‍♀️

ANY SEEDS BUT POPPY SEEDS—PLEASE!

 Soooo good to be ‘home’ from the hospital!  My first two meals were the most delicious I’ve ever had!

Fried rice and egg roll;

Lou Malnati’s deep dish pizza, a gift from Adam and Sami Schwartz—yum!


Transition went smoothly, and once our bedtime plan was in place, all three of us slept well, last night.  First step in night time plan, bedpan, lined with a throw-away pad and plastic bag topped by a pull tie for quick cleanup is readied right next to my side of our Airbnb bed.  At whatever ever time Will awakens to take care of his night time needs, he slides this perfect sized bedpan (chosen on Amazon) toward me.  And thanks to liners, ordered, which fully cover bedpan, no clean up is necessary as refuse is left behind in a bag with a pull tie that shortens our wakeful time.  Then, right before gently lying down beside me, Will, bright angel in the dark night, offers me pain meds, and as we both settle back to sleep soundly, again, for hours at a stretch, you can see why I say that beginning each day with this night time plan in place has proved so far so good.πŸ™‹πŸ»‍♀️


This morning’s combination of meds are barely keeping pain at a tolerable level as long as I don’t try to move.  The foam bed wedge we bought via amazon is strategically placed under three pillows leaning against the headboard so as to hold my head, neck and upper body at a comforting angle of repose, and little by little, swelling from fluid retention is going down.


As I eat next to nothing, my ten pound weight gain came as a huge surprise until I was reassured that, while hospitalized, fluids had been pumped into me, every day, 24/7.


Believe it or not, Will and David are finally gagging on basketball.  So let’s envision a writer’s room in which creativity is taking gargantuan leaps of faith from walls and ceilings in hopes of proding the snarling nature of the voracious bear, seen cowering neath the presidential desk in The Oval Offic, who bites everyone in sight, and thankfully, as a result of these writers working to keep hold of their sanity while craziness rages round our country, we get to binge on The Good Fight—the only TV series that takes trump and his rock headed cronies straight to the swamp,  which is deeper than ever.  And each time the writers’ words of wisdom crash into trump’s brainless cranium, we must be prepared with rain capes because a deluge of Kool aid is bound to spew all over everyone in the room.


At any rate, that’s all my intuitive think tank can easily release for, right now, other than to reiterate that in addition to Will and David exercising their hearts to meet my every need in the most loving ways, all of you, most especially, Barry and Steven, come up with ways that continue to propel this virtual magic carpet ride, which will transport us ever so caringly to my three doctors’ offices, next week, where we’ll hopefully receive the heave ho to donne our hazmat suits, fly home and begin to place the puzzle-Imme like nature of this past year and a half (ever since chest pain and misdiagnosis began) behind us, along with trump’s administration, pence’s beady-eyed insanity, and all of their green eyed,flying purple people eating cronies, who actually believe Covid is a hoax... So for our nation to overcome before our innocent children can attend schools run by clear headed adults whose minds have not bathed in vats filled with so much kool aid as has been true of the Republican Party as can be seen by their electing a sexual predator after which, they’ve remained standing in staunch support of a napoleonic figurehead, who, within the near future, foresees himself as the despicable donald, so swathed in personal power as to have transformed DC’s swamp into a poppy field under which we’ll have been bewitched to bow to his dictatorship unless Vote Blue transitions from a battle cry into a reality at the poles, come November ... so just as I have a gargantuan feat of healing ahead of me in order to reconnect every broken bone that two brilliant surgeons separated so as to scoop out the invader, which, left to its own devices, would have squeezed the life juices out of my lungs and my heart, (and since I know of no one in history who has worked toward encouraging the formation of a grass roots movement in hopes of creating lasting change for the better across the board until the deadly tumor, dwelling in The White House has been expunged, ASAP, let’s each do our part to participate in the expansion of that gargantuan leap of faith toward reunification, focusing, firstly, upon the open mindedness of children so that deeply painful national healing can get underway as we fortify our long lost sense of brotherhood and sisterhood, at long last!


I have just one more insight that longs to tickle your ear before I arise to face my daily plan for healing my body, which, upon the front side, resembles a road map from collarbone to groin while my upper back, left side, is still a mystery to me, since I can’t see around corners and thus, have no clue how much was in need of cutting and stitching after the upper third of my right lung was removed, last week.


At this point, it’s late morning, and Will’s ready to help me get cleaned up, so—more later, except to add:

Stay Well!

Be safe

Feel my love

πŸ™‹πŸ»‍♀️❤️


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Wednesday, August 5, 2020

AND THE BEAT GOES ON

I enjoyed a private after hours party, via video texts with my sister late last night. Am always happy to see the heartfelt friendship that’s
developing between her grandsons, siblings, aged five and three—both as adorable as munchkins can be.

 Pain continues to radiate intensely from collarbone to waist around my body, but I can move my upper arms a little further from my sides, today.  Truthfully, I’ve never had to muster as much courage to open my eyes to face one day after another.  My surgeons comments about my spirit, will and physical progress encourage me to look forward to joining Will and David.  Soon.  Be well.  Stay safe.πŸ™‹πŸ»‍♀️❤️
PS
I think I’m about to feel happy.  Dr Chan just increased my pain meds.πŸ™‹πŸ»‍♀️

Tuesday, August 4, 2020

A MOMENT PLEASE, MR EINSTEIN

Einstein suggested that we never stop questioning, sooo being that this is the hardest recovery that I’ve ever experienced—alone—upon awakening in the hospital, each morning, I wonder if this new day will bring about Sept? Pleeze! Because this pain is intolerable.  And if not today then when, being that patience and excruciating pain are not the stuff of which light and airy soufflΓ©s are made?

Also—Has trump been tarred, feathered, masked and chased out of the Oval Office, so COVID can hop away, releasing healthy teachers and children to populate our schools?  As soon as Einstein can swoop down from on high to answer my questions, I’lI fall asleep, smiling, while hoping to magically awaken as revitalized as would a well rested wood sprite, eager to reunite with her husband and son, who await her return to the Airbnb.

Missing my loved ones sees me getting much too corny with the nurses.  In fact, I’ve been planning the great costumed candy escape from the hospital, but so far, I have no takers.  No worries as I do not easily face defeat when planning to take highly personalized leaps of faith toward pulling off escapades of an extraordinary nature, if not today then tomorrow’s only a day away—and—
‘The important thing is not to stop questioning.’
--Albert Einstein

THIS IS REALLY HARD!

Recovering from this heart/lung surgery
Takes grit of which I have plenty

Recovering from this heart/lung surgery
Takes courage of which I have plenty

Recovering from this heart/lung surgery
Takes patience of which I have plenty

And hope
And humor
And love that flows back and forth between my heart and others so naturally that social distancing creates problems, because each time I tango with a loved one our veins get so tangled as to make six feet of separation impossible—

The one thing that nine months of chemo did not leave me with plenty of was stamina, which is why my loved ones remind me to go easy on myself when I can’t live up to the expectations of the hospital staff, and having recovered the clarity, at least temporarily, to convey today’s train of thought to each of you, hopefully, you’ll respond by feeling kindly to every masked man, woman or child you happen upon while, ar the same time, you find reason to flash your mask in the mirror a smile, as well.

While I’m busy
Recuperating
Please
Be safe
Be well
And when next
We meet, instead of
Giving each other lip
I’ll bring the chips to match
Your dip as together
Leadership across the nation
Brainstorms toward
Creating a plan that will bring
Covid to irs knees so that
Each time you and I choose to
Enjoy each other, we need not fear
Each other’s sneeze
πŸ™‹πŸ»‍♀️πŸ€’Annie

Sunday, August 2, 2020

MY LITTLE BUDDY ...

 Can you believe it?  This hospital doesn’t serve buttery surf and juicy turf with a vodka tonic splashed over ice.  Good thing they’re great at serving up heart/lung repair as a main course! πŸ₯°πŸ¦ΈπŸ»‍♀️πŸŽ‰πŸŽˆ

As you can see by my ability to joke around (after pressing my pain pump button), my recovery is going well, thus far.  My two hour heart surgery was Tuesday.  My 7 hour lung surgery was Wed.  And lots of good news, following both, made the smiles of my family and friends radiate with joy blended with relief.  Dr. Reardon ❤️ had to remove one major heart vessel and a small portion of one atrium.  Dr. Chan removed the lower portion of my right lung after seeing that the chemo had destroyed 80% of the tumor, and pathology reported that all margins are clear and all lymph nodes are clean.  Though high pain levels have had to be tolerated, my little buddy, the pain pump, has been my constant companion until, today, when I was switched to pills, so, we’ll see how that goes.

My husband and I have decided to stay in the Airbnb with David when I’m released from the hospital in a few days if all continues to go well.

I feel buoyed on love and expert medical care.
🦸🏻‍♀️πŸ™‹πŸ»‍♀️πŸ₯°Heidi