An observant child may be self-protective.
At times when confusing changes are taking place
A self protective child may grow more observant, more quiet.
A child, who unknowingly harbors a need to take good care of a parent, may subconsciously grow numb to fear of certain changes.
An observant child grows to be an observant adult.
When I grew up and felt deeply confused about my path, I refrained from saying too much or asking too many questions of my children, because, concern for me may have caused their personal needs to repress too deeply for their own good.
Upon observing my children's natural reactions, I found myself identifing fears, which had been subconsciously repressed from my conscious awareness, as well.
When parents walk egg shells, children do, too.
Eggshells are contagious, because 'like-spirits' sense when both feel unsafe.
‘THE TRUTH’ of what we need to do to meet our needs and the needs of those we love most, emerges, over time.
When asked how I resolve my sense of confusion, today, here is my response:
First, I ask myself this question—
Annie, do you have a clue or is (some fear hidden inside) your brain still fooling you?
As this question fuels the thought processing portion of my brain, a train of thought takes off as though on its own. And as this train of thought picks up steam, I find myself on a new track that takes me through tunnels, makes me climb mountains, and thus do I release confusion, one station at a time.
At first my fear is great.
Station by station not so much
Ultimately I stand centered, strong, and tall.
Well, two out of three's not bad.
Though I see myself as tall
Reality suggests that's beyond my control.
So when I need to confront someone
Who seemingly towers over me
The first thing I say is
'Let's sit down.'
